"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

tuesday marks the start of chionging project. as usual, doing last minute work runs in the genes of every true interior design student. truth be told, life would have been damn mundane if not for the rushings and freaking-outs-cos-someone-destroyed-my-models. i'm serious. sometimes theres no thrill in doing things according t plan. and if we were rlly going t do things accordingly, we'll be resisting a great deal of stuffs, defying what ought not come t us but still came.

well a little digressing i think. anw, i jst finished my clay model. hopefully its still standing strong tmr morning. i've got autocad dwgs, graphics, panel and documentation t do. and TOD seminar on top of the rest mentioned above. and so, i gotta sacrifice trgs, sth i've been very reluctant t do for the past 2 yrs. owning t the fact that i'm into my final yr, i've no choice. and tmr, i'm jst going t train for a mere 2hrs. miserable. but i got t perservere! for the sake of not retaining, i must manage my time well this time round and not fool around.




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everyday's been great
the little disagreements' what make us understand each other more
i'm sure we'll get better in time (:

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2.5?

srsly this sucks. i'm not saying that i've slogged my guts throughout the whole academic year, but i dun think this' the most i deserved. but nvm, at least year 2's over. shall embrace year 3, like i've said, with an open heart. and hopefully, i'll be able to commit well into both course and cca. i rlly dun wish to come to a point, whereby i have to be troubled over giving up either. they're important to me at this point of time and bring me different kind of satisfaction. the sense of achievement versus the adrenaline rush.

i rlly love it when i'm able to complete a piece of good work, value-added when the lecturers like the concept. this is, however, once-in-a-blue-moon thing. nonetheless, its gg to be a target for the next academic year. i love it too when i get totally exhausted aft trgs and sleep through the night and waking up the next day feeling the effects of a good workout. at least i know i've given all out.

sidetrack a little, trgs these couple of weeks have been nostalgic. training back at the pool certainly brings back some fond memories of year 1. the dumbest, the sweetest, the funniest, the saddest, the pool's been the ground for all. trivial events like washing equipment can even be the deepest impression i have of training in the pool.

back. anw as i was saying, i'm aiming not to give up either during my final poly year, hopefully. i better dun retain or whatsoever.

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so far so good.
but nothing lasts forever.
i hate it when all the responsibilities' suddenly land upon me.
and at the end of the day,
i realise i'm just an incompetent fool.
i can't seem to get a shit done on my own.

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no longer a kid. ):
thks for the greetings ppl.
for those who havent and dun intend to,
slap yourself 263692115889 times for being such a sinner!
WAHAHA

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got the new proj brief.
SIAN.
i see that the 2 wks break's meant to break me down ):

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ytd was ironic, totally.
but i'm happy (:
must savour those moments cos i dunno if such things will happen every wk.
AURA okay!

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should i?

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back from chalet.
tired totally.

celebrated poi's bday.
we did that last yr too. (:

played games and laughed real hard.
everyone was so amusing.

drink drank drunk.
almost died cos the chalet was STINKING LIKE HELL!

yea now trying to stay awake so that i can slp early at night.
gotta go sch tmr for some registration.
sian ):

oh anyway, england won 3-0
thought they wldnt make it cos russia was rather strong.
but haha so happy can.

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xiu i miss you too!
really enjoy talking to you even though we only smsed.
yes am loving my life now.
things remain status quo is good enough for me.
i dare not ask for more.
haha.

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well into the second day of crit.
mine's tmr.
nervous. cos i know that i'll die terribly.
esp. for the model that i've done.
workmanship SUCKS!
hoping my furniture design part can pull up my grades a little.
though im not optimistic as well.
):

going gym later to train Train TRAIN!
its coming so soon...
like less than 2 wks from now. =x


tell me who you think you see when you look into my eyes. - i had a super duper random answer for this qn.

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well had a short polo trg today.
did the usual stuffs except keeping cos the goal post's spoilt i heard.
sian |:

hehe little achievement: dip a ball.
mannnn its all coincidental and accidental.
nevertheless, im happy. :D

yea lunch at sakae was ermmm pretty good.
with the exception that lilin almost killed my appetite.
and the xingxing joke. (:
but im beginning to have PMS (post-meal syndrome),
starting to blame myself for eating too much which resulted in overspending. :\

intended to go nad's workplace.
but since i have work to do and she's not starting work til 930,
me and lilin decided to go next time.
maybe a team thing?

yeaa procrastinating now.
supposed to finish my TOD by today.
and run tmr.
yes, run.
its been 2 wks.
im so so dead. |:
high possibility of dropping dead halfway. |:

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truckloads of things to do.
guess its my own doing luh.
slack too much these days.
only know how to read harry potter.
and yes, ive finished it finally. (:

1. tod journal - 6 aug
2. furniture design - 10 aug
3. intech drawings - 10 aug

im loving phillip soven more and more mannn.
im so going to catch him at the reservoir if he comes.
im looking forward to the day.

and PHILLIPSOVEN does not equate PHILLIPS OVEN!!!!! -_-
you know you are damn amusing!!!

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PROCRASTINATION STRIKES AGAIN.
JUST CANT KICK OFF THAT BAD HABIT.
WRITING CAPS RAWK!

AFTER TMR, I HOPE TO GET A BREATHER.
AFTER TMR, IM GONNA SEE A DOC.
AS MUCH AS IM UNWILLING TO, I JUST WANT THE PAIN TO GO AWAY FAST.

AND ME AND SIS ARE SO GOING TO GO QUEENSWAY.
MORE FBTS COMING MY WAY.


SOMETIMES IGNORANCE RINGS TRUTH

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too many things too little time. 2 submissions this fri and im not even halfway for either one. so i guess im gonna be so dead mann..felt so weak running just now. issit because of sun's running? or issit im just finding excuses for myself? or issit my mentality? i dunno.

to you: i feel the same as you. i want to prove people wrong as well. i believe we can. although alot of time im losing hope. but i chose to believe we will pull through. one day, i believe, we will earn what we deserve. i understand it is very hard to commit yourself. yes, i can understand that. but when we gather, youre not alone anymore yea? trust us to give you a hand when you fall. we'll be there to hold you.

to all of you: you may not read this, but i really wish we can achieve sth together. we stayed on for each other so let's make it worthwhile. let's create memories worth remembering years later. i believe we can if we have faith in one another.

thks xiu. im getting optimistic abt things once again. (: im really glad that i got to know you girls. nvr fail to bring me hope. ((:

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brokeback soon.
every inch of me is in pain ):
my palms' red and bruised.
my feet's full of blisters.
even my butt's also bruised.

miserable life.

cldnt work today.
my body just wasnt functioning in the right mode ):
hmmm i hope i can finish my work for submission.

really.
life's pretty much occupied because of trgs and sch work.
i really dun have the time to get a life.
a more colourful life.
yeaa i gotta be stronger if i dun want ppl to pity me.
leave the 'unglam' side me at hm!

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yet another wk gone, just like that.
wondered whether i shd have stayed on.
never a good feeling to feel stranded.

yeaa anyway watched harry potter.
was okk. not bad.
shd have been longer i feel.
some parts were rather abrupt...
which is why i din watch with the canoeing peeps today.
hahaa they insisted i ps them.
oh whatever lar (:

the donuts were nice.
teehee me kangjun and desmond had free ones.
we just took them as if they were ours. *guilty*

mannn there's so much to improve on yet so little time.
cant imagine how infuriated i was when they all managed to score past me.
perhaps less than 50% of the shots were blocked.
):

feels a bit burnt now.
and itchy as well.
hahaaa |:
gotta start my proj. before i surrender to my bed.

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driven crazy by this comp software called microstation.
drawn uncountable lines with this software and its hurting my eyes.
i gotta endure for these few days and i'll be free.


well. a bit lar.

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still coughing and sneezing.
):
im home alone now.
(:

walked huiyu to kallang ytd.
so funny along the way.
i laughed my way thru.

slpt at 3 plus ytd night.
hmm. the drowsiness that the med's supposed to bring doesnt seem to have any effect on me anymore. 

interim's over.
i need to do better models.  
so jia you bah.
(:

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HAPPY LEGAL BIRTHDAY XIU!!!

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woke up at nearly 12. my gawd. headache. sore throat. flu. cough. you name it i have it. as a result of a combi of all these, i've decided not to attend lesson simply because i'll be disturbing the class with my endless coughing and sneezing whatsoever as i alr had disturbed the peace at home. and i went to the doc. he said i had some throat inflammation or sth. sounds scary..but was awarded 1 day mc. i told him i din need exemption from physical activities cos i dun have. he die die also want to give. EXCUSE ME, im in poly alr. no PE for me!!! but fine. hahaa yea. took my medicine and i slpt thru the whole afternoon and woke up with yet another headache. bla bla bla.

tmr's my interim. i hope i'll be fine. and gems after that. feel like skipping but forget it. just go lor. no trg this wkend as usual. but its ok. i need to recuperate. hope to be fine for trg soon. (:

i really want to meet up with cheryl, xiu, trix and lania. probably gonna wait til next wk when all have finished their exams. haix.


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let me wither.

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was trying to do my tod journal today.
it was hard.
all the cheem terms just couldnt register in my mind.
googled them and tried to read and understand.
man, its hard. ):
but just gotta try and absorb them lar.

yep alright my oven shd be coming home soon.
but i cant guarantee it will look the same as before.
according to kangjun's description,
im not that hopeful. ):
but at least got cookies to munch on. ((:

tmr meeting dee they all for lunch.
teehee been a long time since i last saw them.
looking forward.
pity that xiu cant join us. ):
i hope she'll get selected
and i believe she will.

JIAYOU XIU!!! (: geokie's praying for you right now!
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hehe today's comp's very interesting.
was watching from official table for most of the time
since i was the timekeeper for the day.

SP's simply cool!
hotdogs and bulldogs' match damn funny.
the guys played 'who let the dogs out' when they paddled out.
so going to root for fiasco at clarke quay!

sp put up some great fights.
so did np's monsters. (:
they played well and deserved to get to
clarke quay.
hopefully they can jiayou. (:

tmr's crit.
hopefully i can tahan (:

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submission may be over. critique's coming ):
many unlucky things happened to me and my friends.
just hope everyone can be safe and sound,
AWAY FROM INJURY. (:

what else...

on a happier note, happy birthday to all my friends whose birthdays fall on this month.
cos there's too much, thou shall not mention names.

i hope i can do well for tmr matches.
as a gift to my sis who will be coming down to watch.
whose birthday falls on 13 may (:

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YEAH!

SUBMISSION IS OVER! (:

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rawr.
im kind of nervous.
shd be doing coursework.
but here i am.
blogging.

had a little briefing ytd night.
more to come tmr.
hopefully i can prove him wrong.
and he can jiayou also.

we just have to prove each other wrong. (:

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