"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

my sisters.

the white clan @ esplanade

us @ nat champs (last day)

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ok lar, talk many many and you'll win many many and you'll be
HAPPY MANY MANY!!!!!
it was a day of fun, happiness and LOVE (:
we won the match we yearned to win.

chilled at nad's workplace.
hahaa had a bit too much and i even kop desmond's drink and that hersheys' choc inside |:
had loads of fun there.
and my hand still hurts from the slapping game w poi.

and manutd won!!!! what can i say?

anyway, i was really happy w the way we played.
thumbs up from stanley was really a boost for us.
and thanks thanks thanks to kangjun for believing in us yea?
you rawk mann!

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like ive always say, moodswings.

ytd really ended the week on a good note.
whatever had happened before ytd was really nothing.
fought hard to earn sth we really yearned for.
even though it was only a draw,
everyone played hard to earn it.
we did ourselves proud.
and also to those who have always been there for us.
 
thanks.

if we believe and hold on together, we'll definitely make it through.

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everything just sucked.
am so disappointed with myself.
did i pressure myself so much?
to the extent that i break down so easily?
i dunno.
i looked like some sore loser,
a crybaby.

time to grow up.
and take things on my stride huh.

but its just hard.


but then again, nobody said it was easy.

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OK IT'S ALL GOING TO HAPPEN TMR.
so omg lar.
and kangjun's not going to be there.
really so going to die lar. ):

jiayou artello and sp ivp (:


counting down: less than 12 hours.

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alright met poi in search of number stickers and contact glue.
after walking in the rain and eating ice-cream and scavenging bras basah and whatever,
we got the stickers customized.
mannn i've got a brilliant idea as to what i want to customize. :D

hit the gym.
left arm hurt somehow. ):
thats a oh-so-bad news.
im scared.
im nervous.
i cant stop thinking abt it.
someone pls calm me down mannnn.
i think i'll crack under pressure.
im afraid i will.
im so lost.
please teach me to be strong.

counting down: 4 more days

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mannn i cant believe manutd was so suay ytd night.
to think i was so confident that they wld win.
):

they had so many chances, but just cldnt get pass kasper schmeichel -
a rookie keeper.

i hope to be like him.
no matter how hard ppl try,
they just cldnt get pass me.

though the process matters more,
this time round,
the final score matters most.

no one to teach me how to do this or that.
i rely on myself.
im all alone.

having to rely on someone so much makes me feel weak. ):

counting down: 5 more days

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well had my last trg (i believe) before nat champs.
i can only say i still feel unprepared.
hope things wont turn out as bad as i imagine it to be.

my right palm hurts absolutely like hell after doing keeping.
and my left hand's been trembling non-stop.
even when i was having lunch.
had difficulty holding my spoon probably, and it probably made a joke.

but i felt satisfied after trg today.
felt slightly cleverer?
haha and hopefully im able to fully apply my knowledge during matches ((:

6 more days only...
SAVE ME~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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moving into the single digits of counting down.
mannn. there's alot unsettled i'd say.

ok im hitting the gym. period.
hehe was with lilin and poi and her friend in the gym on wed after crit.
my outfit was seriously WRONG.
jeans, formal top and nice sandals. 
haa almost got booted out by the gym auntie.
but hey i was just talking inside.

ray took my cupboard keys. 
and i think im gonna pester him for keys tmr,
if not i dunno how am i going to open the cupboard on sat morning |:

re-reading HP5.
yea its mental cos its 700+ pages.

sms' going to exceed again and its still a long way til i get my next phone bill. ):
failed to exercise self control which led to over-smsing.
im so going to be dead.
mum's going to kill me!!!!

hope that things turn out alright (:
counting down: 8 days by the time i publish this entry (:
note: written on 16aug07

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yeah crit's over. want to chiong trg now (:
counting down: 10 more days

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well into the second day of crit.
mine's tmr.
nervous. cos i know that i'll die terribly.
esp. for the model that i've done.
workmanship SUCKS!
hoping my furniture design part can pull up my grades a little.
though im not optimistic as well.
):

going gym later to train Train TRAIN!
its coming so soon...
like less than 2 wks from now. =x


tell me who you think you see when you look into my eyes. - i had a super duper random answer for this qn.

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honestly, i dreaded ytd.
buying tights for the sake of one friendly just isnt practical at all.
but im left with no choice.

on the brighter side, i did really ok for the friendly.
ok, one was bad.
i cldnt blame it on the paddle entirely.
maybe i just didnt warm up properly or something.
or maybe i just feared my opponents.
haha yea second match was much better for me.
was fiercer yet calmer. (:
its an overwhelming sensation to hear the crisp sound of the paddle blocking a shot
each time. ((:

although its like 2 wks away and 2 more trgs for us,
just hope we can pull through together as a team ((:

yea but like i believe, there's still a whole load of stuffs to improve on.
so cannot be complacent.
hehe.

to anyone out there, dun be demoralised easily like i've once been.
dun give yourself excessive and unnecessary pressure cos it will only pull you down.

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im counting down. time is really running out. looking forward to paddle in a pool. wahaha next wk i think? have been paddling in a river for maybe a month? hopefully theres some difference (:

actually since the start of yr 2, ive been feeling at my best these few days. its as if all problems have been solved, well hopefully. im not so tensed up and emotionally drained anymore. im really glad (:

while others may be burdened with sch work, r/s, social lives, im just feeling freer than last time. feeling lighter, mentally. yea i guess things will always get better when you're surrounded by caring friends. well im glad that ive a fair few friends of such who are making my life colourful.

laughters will always brighten my gloomy days. so more gatherings (:

life may be difficult for each of us in one way or another, but with the right company of friends, life cannot get any better! ((:



alright, this is the kind of entries you'll expect from me when ive nothing to do. (:

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one round of submission over.
coming up: model and tod report.
kill me mannn.
oh well jonathan said have a break first.

wkend trg; always looking forward to them.
hopefully can make up for what ive not trained for last sun.
seriously last sun was a disastrous trg for me.
but oh well, all's over.
im just hoping to start anew.
or at least pick up from where ive stopped.

what keeps me going on is to play well next mth...
means alot to me.
its like an evaluation for me
where i'll decide on my next step.

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070707 - my first water (SEA) trg in more than a month.

rusty.

anyway kangjun wasnt down today so other seniors took us for trg.
did the usual stuffs.
mannnn i realised how much i miss doing them when i did them just now.
though i was kind of sian during trg.
probably because we havent been trg for so long and its like suddenly,
we got to get back to trg mode.
hahaha.
we're just lazy bums (:

counting down to nat champs.
feeling very nervous.
whether or not if i get into the ivp team,
i will get to play, well in the opens.
looking forward to playing with my team mates again.
yeaa though we arent that great but they are great people.
though we arent that respected, we're still great ok..

yeaa.
anyway, life's miserable.
rushing assignments day in day out.
no life.
really, i guess i only find some life and colours in polo.
where i seek the other side of me.

now watching live earth...
saw linkin park just now..
mannn they rawk!
esp chester..his voice is just so amazing.
their performances just rawk my living room.

hehe okk im glad ive finished all drawings for microstation.
im left with scaling them and adding in dimensions and annotations.
may not be super cool submission but at least ive submitted alright.





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you gave me something.
and you take them away.


080707: another trg day
perhaps its been cooping inside for too long.
im just glad i just let them get off my chest.

after trg i went hm before meeting the lovelies for a long-awaited dinner.
xiu's belated bday dinner.
gawww i miss them.
haha we crapped and laughed and ate and camwhored as usual.
nth beats having them ard.
was making fun of trix hehe.
so funny.
looking forward to yet another gathering.
soon, hopefully.

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they still care.
they still yearn to see some results.
hopefully there's some form of results for them to see.

nvr wish to see a disappointing face.

as much as im washing my hands off things,
i still care.




counting down.
its approaching.
thought it was a few months away.
apparently, its only less than two months' time.
omgawd lar.

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