"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

i think i'm moving but i go nowhere
yeah i know everyone gets scared
but i've become what i can't be


like i've said, the harsh reality's taught me to be strong in times of adversity. itp to me is like as if i'm an adult working. no longer under anyone's protection, i'm out on my own. whatever happens, i just have to rack my brains, in search of a solution. DIE DIE also must. as much as i am feeling very tired from all these, there's still the sense of satisfaction upon the completion of the project. sounds very fickle again ): but i just hope i'm able to absorb all these knowledge as much as i can. (:

sadly i can't train tmr due to work. feel so sian diao ):

10 more days until you're over me (:

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THE SUDDEN URGE TO BLOG IN CAPS. TODAY WAS REALLY BUSY. SERIOUSLY I THOUGHT I COULD SLACK A LITTLE SINCE THE BOSS WASN'T COMING INTO THE OFFICE. BUT I WAS WRONG! MEETING, UMPTEEN PHONECALLS AND SMSES FROM CONTRACTORS AND ENDLESS ALTERATIONS TO THE DRAWINGS. I'M SO GLAD THE CLIENT HAS FINALLY ENDORSED THE DRAWINGS. :D x GAZILLIONS K! AND BECAUSE OF THE ENDLESS WORK, I WAS LATE, YET AGAIN, FOR MY DINNER W XIU AND CHERYL. BOO! BUT I MADE IT UP BY PAYING FOR THE DINNER K. CHERYL WAS SERIOUSLY SKILFUL (or dumb you wld say) ENOUGH TO DROP THE SLICE OF WATERMELON INTO THE WASABI AND SOY SAUCE. DAMN GROSS I TELL YOU. : THE GLOOMY WEATHER WAS NOTHING WITH THEM ARD. (:



im so glad that my mood these days have been good. i mean, no matter how tough things may get, im just glad to say that i've managed to pull through. be it work or trg, i just want to maintain this optimism. i dunno, just feel that nothing can get any worser now so just try hard and i guess everything will eventually turn out fine. gahhh i have no idea what the hell am i uttering now. maybe its just time to shut off my laptop and go into that trouble-free utopia.


and yea, i'm just 11 days from that wake up call. (:

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perhaps it was some kind of blessing in disguise. i forgo trg (as if there's any) and went to work as per normal. and luckily i did cos i think iris (my colleague) wld probably die of exhaustion. together we rushed out the drawings and headed down to site for a meeting with the contractor. i was damn busy that i din have the time to reply msgs. i could reply aft i got on the contractor's car, heading back to office. and it wasnt the end of the day. i still have a meeting with the client. even though i wasn't rlly involved in the meeting, i still gotta be there. sian. i was a good hour late for my dinner date with the girls. me and iris were going nuts cos we havent had breakfast and lunch and dinner was only possible aft 8pm. how pathetic. ): and i have nothing but grudges to rant at to the girls. but the mood was much better aft i had my fill. xiu made us choc tarts. it was very chocolate-ty. not to mention we had dessert which were as chocolate-ty. sinful. but luckily, i'm going to run tmr. and i hopeHopeHOPE i can run diligently. haha and maybe polo awhile or sth. yea feeling dead without 'chlorine-free' water on me. haha.

the chocolate-ty and yummilicious dessert and tart. (:

my sassy colleague whose name shall not be mentioned. (:

always feeling that the effort always goes to waste.

so why and who am i going the extra mile for?



i cant tell either. but i rlly hope you give me an answer. i'm tired of having to initiate. i feel so distant from you.

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2.5?

srsly this sucks. i'm not saying that i've slogged my guts throughout the whole academic year, but i dun think this' the most i deserved. but nvm, at least year 2's over. shall embrace year 3, like i've said, with an open heart. and hopefully, i'll be able to commit well into both course and cca. i rlly dun wish to come to a point, whereby i have to be troubled over giving up either. they're important to me at this point of time and bring me different kind of satisfaction. the sense of achievement versus the adrenaline rush.

i rlly love it when i'm able to complete a piece of good work, value-added when the lecturers like the concept. this is, however, once-in-a-blue-moon thing. nonetheless, its gg to be a target for the next academic year. i love it too when i get totally exhausted aft trgs and sleep through the night and waking up the next day feeling the effects of a good workout. at least i know i've given all out.

sidetrack a little, trgs these couple of weeks have been nostalgic. training back at the pool certainly brings back some fond memories of year 1. the dumbest, the sweetest, the funniest, the saddest, the pool's been the ground for all. trivial events like washing equipment can even be the deepest impression i have of training in the pool.

back. anw as i was saying, i'm aiming not to give up either during my final poly year, hopefully. i better dun retain or whatsoever.

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so far so good.
but nothing lasts forever.
i hate it when all the responsibilities' suddenly land upon me.
and at the end of the day,
i realise i'm just an incompetent fool.
i can't seem to get a shit done on my own.

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oh well its the second week. the past week has been an eye-opener for me. working was something i once thought was still far away from me. and gosh, i'm working now. just goes to show how fast time flies. anyway this week will pass by fast, hopefully. i'm yearning for saturday's trg. i srsly can't wait. its where all the previous 5 days of lethargy are totally drowned by the swimming pool water. i just want to train and row away whatever unhappiness i have. geok in the pool is a happygirl. right now i just need to make sure my ass gets to sp gym every tue. i must I Must I MUST! cos i'm xiaohuang! ok random, farfetched, no link!

and yes, its 7more weeks to end of itp
and
6more weeks to it.

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how long must i be far away from you.
i dont know dear but i know we are one.

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work's been alright.
thought it would be damn miserable, probably it hasnt come yet.
just that im now deprived of wkday trainings.
and that i have to be deprived of it for 9 wks.
life's so miserable.



happy valentines'
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i dont wanna lose you
but i dont wanna use you
just to have somebody by my side

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