"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

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yep this is my week. busy but love it. cos i've been pretty productive and disciplined. BUT i missed trgs and i feel guilty. hopefully i'll be able t make time for it next week.

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work a little harder to connect to your crush. you should be a bit more obvious.

aint i obvious enough?

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running was like crap today. felt so much weaker, and i think i havent fully recovered fr my flu. and how unlucky was i, gym wasnt open today. guess i'm jst fated not t gym, after 2wks of no gym, going t the 3rd, my arms are rlly getting flabby. i'm nothing but sad. my arms are getting bigger. i'd rather they are toned, at least they look nicer than fats. polo-ed awhile and i tell you, it sucks. nvr felt so sucky in a while. i'm jst utterly disgusted by myself for my lousiness and weakness. i rlly got t brace up, buck up and work hard. if not i'll be a huge disappointment myself. friendlies tmr w the nat teams. i'm going t try my v best. and it'll be followed by proj meetup. no going out for me tmr, i must be a good girl and do my work diligently. my promise, t nobody but myself.


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thank you so much for your concern and listening ear. though it was jst via msn, i feel your concern and i will definitely stay focused. i know i cant afford t lose concentration at this point of time, so i'm gonna depend on you for the constant reminders t make sure i'm doing the right thing at the right time. thank you so much my dear lovely.

and t you, you know i can nvr thank you enough. any amount of words cant describe my gratitude, any amount of 'thank yous' will nvr suffice. i jst pray things will remain the same for us yea? we can do it.

you know who you are, i'm sure. i know i can depend on you guys for listening ears and shoulders t lean on. i love you so much my dears. (:





but remember the time i told you the way that i felt
that i'd be lost without you and never find myself
let's hold onto each other above everything else
start over, start over

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i'm jst so glad that i've met up with the girls this evening. trg earlier was disastrous for me. so i felt the happiness in me was like to the power of infinite. we lost the reservation cos we were late but luckily, we werent made t wait for long(: platter, salmon, fish and chips, we ate like 4 gluttons, happily. and i got so so bloated that i had difficulty walking and i'm not kidding. shopped at daiso for i-dunno-how-long and the bill summed up t 52bucks. haha so wednesday's a day full of loveLoveLOVE (:

wkend is family day. its been awhile since the family goes out for dinner together, indulging in well-deserved good food and enjoying each other's company.

wkend's also my 3juniors' sprinting competition. i'll make sure i get my lazy ass down t mac t support them(:

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the tall and dark and handsome FAHRAY

with the 2 ALUMNIS

many loves

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it was bad news. but i know i can't cling on t it, knowing that youll be even more miserable. i got t move on. i rlly got t. maybe who knows, things will turn out better.

on a sweeter note, happy 1st(:

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alright i've finally uploaded the pictures. oh wells took me so long t get them up. so its alot of random shots. but they're all pretty. some of my happiest moments. wouldnt have been so if not for you.


thanks <3

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sweet

comical

shit

loves

ok so its 4 at a time lor. ): anws more t come. stay tuned.

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so tired from training. the feeling of training keeping felt fresh. felt like a noob all over again. but i'm sure i've picked up more. but we tiang-ed like hell ytd. nad actually said we cld be called SP TIANGSTERS. but seriously, its going to sound damn pathetic.

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oh wells a 10-hr sleep din really help in killing those aches and sunburnt off. i'm still very tired and hurting. and quite a boring lecture finally ended and i FINALLY see my muka and my niece. havent seen her since she was born. and she's so cute (: but i gotta get my lazy ass out soon as i have this visit to a museum which is sadly and unluckily just beside my office ): and i have to go there later. how sickening.

well schedule's out. and we are potentially left with 2 matches only. so all the best to us. and also to all other sp teams. no tiangs please. (:

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and if you have a minute why don't we go
talk about it somewhere only we know?
this could be the end of everything
so why don't we go
somewhere only we know?

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well its been an interesting weekend. with itp ending (by right) and school already started, things' gonna be real different from the past 9 weeks. well, the only similarity that i see is that all this while, its still going to be hectic, maybe worser than during itp. cos i'm going to 3rd year. and i can seriously feel pressure coming from everywhere. i don't i'm going to have so much time to slack and laze around bla bla bla. my time's only for sch & cca.

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CHELSEA DRAW AND MANUTD'S A STEP CLOSER TO DEFENDING THEIR TITLE (:
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VERY NO LIFE CAN )':

HE ROCKS (:(:

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you're beautiful, it's true
there must be an angel, with a smile on her face.
when she thought up that i should be with you.
but it's time to face the truth,
i will never be with you

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i think we just rocked foodcourt 5's KFC.
cos we laughed and sang bday song like no one's business.

all we need - some drinks, some food, and POI and we'll laugh like there's no tomorrow.



all in all, we're happy (:

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i guess as much as i get disappointed over certain issues or people, i get over them pretty easily. i remembered not too long ago i got pretty pissed off with a friend over certain matters. well, i guess it wasn't very long after we were fine with each other. i guess the patience and understanding played a huge role. i guess this is something like a major flaw in me - rash. i usually get pissed off at that juncture when things happen and it always takes me quite a while to see things from another perspective, and to understand that the other party wasn't at fault, i've wronged him/her.

such things never seem to cease. they keep happening. so many times i doubted my judgement, wondering am i being too harsh in my words and actions. i guess i was at fault at times. whatever it is, i should just embrace my friends' faults with magnanimity, just like how many of them can disregard my flaws and continue to befriend me. or rather, they point out my flaws to me, knowing that i'll try to change for the better.

i'm putting out my helping hand, hoping you will try and accept, just like how i shamelessly grab yours every time. i guess friends should be thickskinned with each other. (:(: i meant every single one of you who treats me as your friend. i promise i'll try my best to help.


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And when I see you then I know it will be next to me
And when I need you then I know you will be there with me
Ill never leave you...
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another 9 more days until youre over me =P

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THE SUDDEN URGE TO BLOG IN CAPS. TODAY WAS REALLY BUSY. SERIOUSLY I THOUGHT I COULD SLACK A LITTLE SINCE THE BOSS WASN'T COMING INTO THE OFFICE. BUT I WAS WRONG! MEETING, UMPTEEN PHONECALLS AND SMSES FROM CONTRACTORS AND ENDLESS ALTERATIONS TO THE DRAWINGS. I'M SO GLAD THE CLIENT HAS FINALLY ENDORSED THE DRAWINGS. :D x GAZILLIONS K! AND BECAUSE OF THE ENDLESS WORK, I WAS LATE, YET AGAIN, FOR MY DINNER W XIU AND CHERYL. BOO! BUT I MADE IT UP BY PAYING FOR THE DINNER K. CHERYL WAS SERIOUSLY SKILFUL (or dumb you wld say) ENOUGH TO DROP THE SLICE OF WATERMELON INTO THE WASABI AND SOY SAUCE. DAMN GROSS I TELL YOU. : THE GLOOMY WEATHER WAS NOTHING WITH THEM ARD. (:



im so glad that my mood these days have been good. i mean, no matter how tough things may get, im just glad to say that i've managed to pull through. be it work or trg, i just want to maintain this optimism. i dunno, just feel that nothing can get any worser now so just try hard and i guess everything will eventually turn out fine. gahhh i have no idea what the hell am i uttering now. maybe its just time to shut off my laptop and go into that trouble-free utopia.


and yea, i'm just 11 days from that wake up call. (:

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i'm aching all over. face, body, legs, arms. everywhere. all inflicted from the trgs in the wkend. well, it sorted of ended bittersweet. knowing that i do have teeny weeny bit of potential lying in certain aspect, i guess i can try working hard on that. BUT without injuring my arm or aggravating whatever injury there was. yea cos it ached again. and i'm like typing with the arm guard on. ): like i've said it was bittersweet, in a couple of aspects. apart from that, we did have some good exposure ytd. however minor disagreements always happen and it had to happen ytd. but at least the fight for it was proven worthy. cos the last match was the best performance so far. we possessed most of all the seniors wished we had and hopefully we'll work on that and motivate ourselves. cos i guess i do see some glimpse of hope upon the completion of that match. personally i was ecstatic too. I LOVE THAT MOMENT TO THE MAX! that goal was unexpected but its definitely what i've yearned for. cos i know i was able to pull it off so i gave it a shot. whether or not a goal was scored, i know i wldnt regret. furthermore, scenes of the last comp still linger so scoring against them was sugarsweet. yep hopefully i'm able to have multiple attempts during sp opens. well maybe everyone in my team shd just give it a try cos this is tyco haha (:

well, i guess i wldnt want anymore friendlies for the time being cos its a little time wasting, especially when comp is nearing andAndAND the results' almost certain. so why go the extra mile when its actually not needed? maybe we just need to get my heads in the game since the heat is on huh. yep focus hard on trgs and we'll be fine, i hope.

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i'm only left w portfolio submission (:(:
hols' here and pool's awaiting (:(:
but itp's coming and i hope i wont screw things up.

anw i went for sakae with xy & l on fri.
we were damn pathetic ok.
trying to kill time by doing some of the lamest things.
and ate to our heart's content.
as usual, it became my only meal of the day.

on sat i met up w cheryl & xiu to surprise trix @ her lime flea market booth @ *scape.
but mannnn she wasnt surprised at all so we shd not bother to come up with ways to surprise her anymore, period.
quenched our thirst at gloria jean's and walked at heeren, thecathay, bugis street (which we saw the lamest 'gangfight' ever as the kids were about to fight with SUGARCANES omgawd!)
cheryl left to meet her friends and we cont. to walk at bugis, rafflescity and marinasq.
xiu and i were being damn pj cos we cldnt find that bubbletea stall after walking rounds ard the basement of rafflescity :
anw we cldnt find any suitable cny clothing. sucks mannn
and we had dinner at hkcafe (xinwang) which was yummilicious.
and we cont. to walk walk walk and we din buy a single piece of clothing.
how pathetic has the shopping centres turned into.

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sun was another day of fruitless shopping. ):

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happy xmas (:

xmas eve was
...training w my juniors at kallang (just odd!!)
...packing 9 persons uncomfortably into timo's car (just gay only!!)
...eating ultra-yummylicious chicken rice at beach road (just heavenly!!)
...blisters popping out and skin peeling off my manly palms (just painful only!!)
...sitting down hours later and starting to eat yet again (just sinful!!)
...and lastly, falling sick before the clock struck 12 (just suay only!!)


nonetheless its a kind of blessing in disguise i wld say <3

oops not forgetting a lovely and priceless xmas present from my sis (:(:
thks.

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