"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

running was like crap today. felt so much weaker, and i think i havent fully recovered fr my flu. and how unlucky was i, gym wasnt open today. guess i'm jst fated not t gym, after 2wks of no gym, going t the 3rd, my arms are rlly getting flabby. i'm nothing but sad. my arms are getting bigger. i'd rather they are toned, at least they look nicer than fats. polo-ed awhile and i tell you, it sucks. nvr felt so sucky in a while. i'm jst utterly disgusted by myself for my lousiness and weakness. i rlly got t brace up, buck up and work hard. if not i'll be a huge disappointment myself. friendlies tmr w the nat teams. i'm going t try my v best. and it'll be followed by proj meetup. no going out for me tmr, i must be a good girl and do my work diligently. my promise, t nobody but myself.


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thank you so much for your concern and listening ear. though it was jst via msn, i feel your concern and i will definitely stay focused. i know i cant afford t lose concentration at this point of time, so i'm gonna depend on you for the constant reminders t make sure i'm doing the right thing at the right time. thank you so much my dear lovely.

and t you, you know i can nvr thank you enough. any amount of words cant describe my gratitude, any amount of 'thank yous' will nvr suffice. i jst pray things will remain the same for us yea? we can do it.

you know who you are, i'm sure. i know i can depend on you guys for listening ears and shoulders t lean on. i love you so much my dears. (:





but remember the time i told you the way that i felt
that i'd be lost without you and never find myself
let's hold onto each other above everything else
start over, start over

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its omg t the max. it was mercilessly humid this afternoon. went back t sch t do my TOD seminar ppt. mann i cldnt concentrate cos of the super humid weather. got me all so sweaty and sticky and whiny ): finally got things done at ard 4pm, me and xy jst zoomed hm. and i ate hungrily like i've been tortured for god-knows-how-many-years. and slacked (omg again!) til now. well i did finish compiling the seminar ppt so it wasnt too bad. i'm jst gg to make sure i come up w a clay model tmr before i can think of dating P/T for dinner.

someone commented that i've got big biceps and bigger triceps. its jst so saddening k! but i've no choice right? tell me how t row fast w/o gymming? and how not t have big arms despite gymming? ):):):):

forget abt that and i've watched made of honour. gotta agree w xiu that its nice. and this show's got nice soundtracks as well. i'm so going t search for the OST. well, BRITPOP RAWKS!




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the damage's done. nothing i do will be able to mend that hole thats existent for so long. it will always remain an imperfection of the perfection. we were brought together by something so divine. whatever thats trying t break up us has broken us up. i'm praying nothing more than just us staying strong, in hope that we'll pull through this calamity together, as one.

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