"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

2.5?

srsly this sucks. i'm not saying that i've slogged my guts throughout the whole academic year, but i dun think this' the most i deserved. but nvm, at least year 2's over. shall embrace year 3, like i've said, with an open heart. and hopefully, i'll be able to commit well into both course and cca. i rlly dun wish to come to a point, whereby i have to be troubled over giving up either. they're important to me at this point of time and bring me different kind of satisfaction. the sense of achievement versus the adrenaline rush.

i rlly love it when i'm able to complete a piece of good work, value-added when the lecturers like the concept. this is, however, once-in-a-blue-moon thing. nonetheless, its gg to be a target for the next academic year. i love it too when i get totally exhausted aft trgs and sleep through the night and waking up the next day feeling the effects of a good workout. at least i know i've given all out.

sidetrack a little, trgs these couple of weeks have been nostalgic. training back at the pool certainly brings back some fond memories of year 1. the dumbest, the sweetest, the funniest, the saddest, the pool's been the ground for all. trivial events like washing equipment can even be the deepest impression i have of training in the pool.

back. anw as i was saying, i'm aiming not to give up either during my final poly year, hopefully. i better dun retain or whatsoever.

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so far so good.
but nothing lasts forever.
i hate it when all the responsibilities' suddenly land upon me.
and at the end of the day,
i realise i'm just an incompetent fool.
i can't seem to get a shit done on my own.

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what say you?