"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

at this particular date of the every month, the same thoughts always resurface. what happened? who? why? how come? and every single answer always leads to disbelief. i cannot help but think of how each reacted to it. is this a joke, omg, serious arh, wth, etcetera etcetera. but i know everyone at the receiving end of the news is happy for me, ultimately. for finding a partner, for letting go, for moving on most importantly.

sometimes words are much more impactful than speech. i do not know why. maybe i cannot convey the right feelings for the words i want t say. and for you, i cannot express the utmost gratitude i have for you. to change my initial impression of you was such a huge move. by now you should know how i felt towards you at the beginning from year1 to when we first interacted to falling in love. although it was really short while getting to know you, i had a great time after that knowing you more. we behaved in the most comical and real way. thank you for the really fond memories, the ugliest moments in the relationship which made us so much closer, for giving me chances after chances, for giving me a space of my own, for letting me get through my thoughts to you in the most comfortable and direct methods. i can truly say i never regretted committing even though it might have changed me in some ways. at least you make me independent even though i rely on you too much sometimes. you make me laugh heartily even though i cry for you as if i had asthma. you are the sweetest even though you disgust me sometimes(!!!)

but you know. that i've never regretted, and will never regret.

happy anniversary sweetheart

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together we'll survive
through the haste and hurry
i'll be at your side
if you feel like you're alone
you've got somewhere to go
'cos i'm at your side

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