"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

omgggggggawd. im having very very bad moodswings.
one moment im laughing my ass out.
the next moment im all gloomy.
this is utterly shitty mannnn.
dun ask me why. im searching for an answer as well.

back's aching again.
this time its really painful.
cant sit well. nor can i stand well.
its freakingly getting on my nerves
that i cant do anything well because of that.
i think i'll just bear for a month plus and eat those med obediently.
and i'll get SEEK PROPER HELP after september.

maybe its bad to drag.
but the thought that any treatment now means to rest
is going to give me more moodswings
and make my already miserable life like hell and shit.
):



pardon me for this but im really feeling fucking miserable now.

Labels: serious rantings

what say you?