"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

new year eve go training. siao? hahaa. the pool was quite empty. yea. no stanley. no akuma. who's gonna lead training when our captain wasnt around yet? in the end, desmond and daren led the training. i sort of spoilt the conventional paddle during drive-in shoot. used brasca instead. so much better for keeping. yea. and got a few pointers from kenneth - the super cool keeper, bro of akuma. hahaa. he's just cool lar. he never panicks. got the damn steady face. hahaha after talking abit, he's quite nice. i mean not as cold as he appears to be. after pondering what he said for a while, can say that i totally agree that height doesnt really matter. hahaa cos some keepers may be tall but if their reflexes arent fast enough, its also useless. guess he doesnt really know how to tell certain things he just showed it. he was like 'i keep, you look...' hahaa. oh yar, jo and i were like comparing the 2 of them in terms of their characters. definitely enjoyed jo's free show of impersonating akuma. ((:

played 2 matches today. the first one was a little sucky cos i let in alot of goals. from tiff. ): gotta improve more, prevent loop balls. (: second was mixed girls against junior guys. haha was damn happy that i blocked shawn's ball. i remembered how sarcastic he was when the shot i made during one of matches went WIDE. but i din do the same to him cos i dun want to be as low as someone. praise from daren is good enough. ahahahaa quite a morale boost cos he's a senior afterall and i've blocked a guy's shot. (: ray's debriefing was quite hilarious. yep. did loads of keeping with nad, we were like playing ard whenever the seniors are playing matches. also tried to block shots from seniors which made my hands suffered.

came home and had reunion dinner. haaha.. then slp from 7 to almost 12. yep and now, not slping. kinda energetic. chatting with poi. we were complaining to each other abt training. hahaa.

hahaa kinda addicted to keeping. i mean im like totally into it. like the sound when the paddle blocks the ball. nice and loud and crisp. totally cool lar. i hope i can train myself like a guy...the way i keep, not panicking during match. like how my seniors coolly keep each and retrieve each ball.

guess i've found my role model.

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