somewhere only we know

moved!

2010-06-16T16:33:00.000+08:00

the same url on tumblr, see you there!

2010-06-16T11:16:00.002+08:00

world cup has been 'so far so sian'. i've watched a couple of matches and they all ended full time with draws. highly anticipated matches turned out boring and disappointing. lets hope the second round will be better.

today was supposed to be one of the most important days in my life.

its pouring cats and dogs and im like semi-drenched despite coming t work late, hoping the rain wld subside. well, it totally speaks of my gloominess today. i had a dream last night. i dont know if its considered bad but i woke up to fears and almost tears. and dreams often make me ponder why do all good things come to an end?

its rlly a bad bad day :(

2010-06-11T16:35:00.003+08:00

right now, living life to the fullest is the most important. even though reality says that focus on your job and do it well is what gets you far. to me, putting in the effort in my work is not what reality asks of me, but its what passion tells me to. i do what i love to, not what reality tells me to. maybe its because we're in this little red dot, its kind of hard to live your dreams because everyone's so competitive. living your dreams seems impractical and foolish to people who cant wait to go up higher. i'm happy with my job and everything now, even though i just lost a vital part of me. but i know i'll slowly get better, which i'm doing a pretty good job now, and come back stronger. and to me, better and stronger are not defined by the achievements in work, but by the sense of satisfaction and the happiness that come with accomplishing something, be it work or personal.

its a shame that all good things must come to an end. however, if thats what fate wants things to be and how you want it to be, i guess by doing it your way is the best way of loving you.

2010-06-10T12:23:00.006+08:00

true to my words, i have friends that i could fall back on. somehow, my friends are so worried (or not i dunno) that they've been fixing meet ups frequently. heh i must reiterate this point that im fine, much better than i thought. i guess i am stronger than i thought too. but anw, thanks so much for the efforts to trying to make me feel better. love you guys ♥

and i do realise that my instax's too bulky and attention-seeking that i din want to take it out for photo taking whn i met up with artello on mon ): ):

world cup's coming up, cant wait! :D

2010-06-08T17:34:00.001+08:00

the littlest things

2010-06-08T15:34:00.003+08:00

of so many things, i miss sunday breakfasts most.

even though it means waking up early on the only day when i can sleep in,

i feel exceptionally happy and loved.

my sunday mornings are now replaced with regular rowings. its fun with the company of teammies. even though our muscles might ache, blisters might pop out, i love how relaxed we are while rowing, talking to our hearts' content, and continue talking at starbucks.

i hope it'll be regular :D

we all ♥ fika

2010-06-08T11:47:00.006+08:00

last night was ♥, catching up with teammies and 'heart to heart sessions' - quoted from lin - were always so heartwarming. its really a pity that not everyone turned up. but i'm sure we're gna meet up very very soon. happy birthday nad ♥

thanks for your listening ears. surprisingly we think alot of things in pretty similar way. it was truly heartwarming. (:

2010-06-07T00:49:00.001+08:00

What are these voices outside love's open door

Make us throw off our contentment

and beg for something more?

2010-06-03T23:06:00.003+08:00

like you said, i ought to learn t do things for myself. its like being mre selfish thn before. heh t think i alr assume that im a selfish person for alw wanting your attention. well well, goes t show how different our minds work.

fate works ironically. it likes t play pranks on us. i'd like t think of this as a huge prank thats gna come full circle eventually. but i'd wish mre for both of us t be happy (:

i wonder how life's gna be. its like a brand new chapter of a never-ending storybook. i've got loads of adventures awaiting me i hope. hopefully my stories will take me t different parts of the world. for now, leave the sorrows behind and embark on a new and exciting journey, i hope.

2010-05-31T00:21:00.003+08:00

you taught me important lessons in life and made me a much better person.

can never thank you enough for the selflessness and love.

2010-05-27T14:20:00.003+08:00

i looked back at my own entries of 2009. i think i sounded like someone with an IQ of abt 10, and EQ of probably 0 and probably still sound like one now. i realized how egoistic i can get and hence i tend not t admit my mistakes and flaws. anw, i have given some issues plenty of thoughts and am resolved to doing some things in order t salvage the situation.

you can reprimand me, but dont rush me.
you can disagree, but dont deny.
as an idiot with a 10 for IQ, i rlly need time.

:D

2010-05-25T17:43:00.001+08:00

is it not enough to just be in love?

2010-05-25T15:31:00.004+08:00

alot's been happening recently and they made me rlly tired. whatever will be is still a mystery. but i cant help but get rlly worried sometimes. cos what if turns out, im rlly at the losing end? what if i had always been in the dark? what if i've been betrayed? thn the time, the effort, everything put in will come to naught. and thats whn i know everything's over.

the heart of the matter

2010-05-24T11:08:00.001+08:00

These times are so uncertain

There's a yearning undefined

And people filled with rage

We all need a little tenderness

How can love survive in such a graceless age?

The trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness

They're the very things - we kill I guess...

Ohh pride and competition

Cannot fill these empty arms

And the work I put between us

You know it doesn't keep me warm

I'm learning to live without you now

But I miss you, baby

And the more I know, the less I understand

All the things I thought I'd figured out

I have to learn again

never fails to bring tears to my eyes

2010-05-22T14:10:00.002+08:00

cant wait to see you

2010-05-18T12:14:00.002+08:00

miss him, alot.

wondering whn's the next time im gna see him.

things get worse whn i have nth t do t make time pass faster.

rlly thankful that im mtg xiu later.

miss cheryl and trix too.

cant wait for 3oth.

bye.

2010-05-15T11:33:00.002+08:00

"love is not about finding the right one, but to love the one you've
found.."

there's so much i need to learn from this. despite the advice i was able to churn out of my mind, im still nt good enough to advise myself.every night before i sleep, i would think about how vulnerable this relationship's always been on my part. that im not practising what im preaching. that i've been going back on my words time after time. that im not learning my lessons after each fall. finally, im at a loss as to what to do, only with that evil thought lingering. but i know im never gna resort to that.

2010-05-12T15:36:00.003+08:00

had dinner w bbb(: at fika. its a swedish cafe and bistro offering breakfast, sandwiches and maincourses, etc. rlly love the ambience and the overall design there. one of the places which we spent longer time in other thn starbucks. sadly, the prices are kind of steep in my opinion, but the food's great. we had grilled chicken thigh and swedish meatballs. & im gna hint my lovelies for a dinner there someday :D

2010-05-11T10:58:00.003+08:00

have this habit of reading old entries, of friends and of mine. brought back so much memories of days whn we were rlly childish and wild. tday i read bff's. and i was reminded of many chilli sessions we had, so many lame and unglam, happy and sad, angsty and demoralized moments. despite the ups and downs, i was and am still glad that i had you with me to get over those undesirable times. you'd probably nvr realize how thankful i've always been.

and i rlly miss you, come back soon ♥

2010-05-07T12:24:00.002+08:00

out of randomness, i login t friendster cos i heard its changed quite abit. am surprised there are still ppl using it. anw went t take a look at past testimonials. cldnt help but be amused by the way we used t write. childish and comical. sometimes i dun even rmb what we were talking abt because we were all trying hard t make it unreadable t the rest who werent involved. nw even i myself cant rmb. how good's that? ):

anw, its finally friday. wkend's here and im wondering how occupied/unoccupied im gna be...

cute?

2010-05-05T14:53:00.000+08:00

what say you?

we're two!

2010-05-03T15:41:00.004+08:00

last wk was ♥

thk you for the little surprise in the morning. i totally din expect it.

and right nw, its back t counting mths. but we're gna look forward t the getaway(:

i am happy whn

2010-04-29T10:59:00.002+08:00

people around me are happy. so frown no more cos the days ahead's gna be much mre awesome thn before :D

2010-04-28T12:11:00.000+08:00

"Letting go doesn't mean giving up... it means moving on. It is one of the hardest things a person can do. Starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. We feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. But as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. We are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. It means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

-unknown

2010-04-22T12:24:00.000+08:00

nth's cfrm til the bucks are parted w me. but im rlly eggcited! :D

doesnt mean anything

2010-04-20T11:56:00.005+08:00

everyone can say they have a reason for doing this, or nt doing this. but seems like im the only one who cant. i have t be the one giving in, be the one suppressing all my dismay, in order t accommodate. im getting rlly sick of it.

i want t be selfish. bt yet i cant.

cos i'll be reprimanded for being childish, for nt being mature enough t think fr someone else's point of view. thn, have anyone spared a thought for me? lately i've been thinking so much, thinking abt the many bt insignificant things i've been giving in lately. yet i dun feel like i was rewarded. each time the dial tone at the other end of the phone dies, i feel like i've been given a tight slap on the face, a strict rejection. each time the receiving end of the phone goes silent, i feel like i've been talking t myself all along. each time i tell myself everything's gna get better, i feel like im deceiving myself.

honestly, whos gna be generous t me? whos gna let me throw all the fits i want in the world and nt criticise me? i feel like running away fr all the work and commitments and promises, esp tday. but im jst nt allowed t.

2010-04-16T12:07:00.003+08:00

been on the verge of falling sick these days. super sad. hopefully nth's gna deter me fr my swimming plan tmr(:

im dying t get this REAC miniature designer chairs. a whole set of 42chairs cld easily cost me a whopping 450-600bucks, depending on my capability t search for cheaper ones. rlly in a huge dilemma cos im dont splurge often yet always feel guilty easily once i spent too much. HOW? :(

2010-04-12T10:39:00.002+08:00

i guess as much as we think that we are really complicated creatures who dont know what we want, we are actually really easy t read. as much as i am perceived t be a pretty good mind reader, i believe just by being really sensitive and observant, its nt hard t guess what someone's thinking. and like i said, since we arent as complicated as we think, it cld only be the same few issues bothering us all the time - affairs of the heart. heh i dont mean t make myself sound like some love guru or what, but fr my personal experience, i learnt alot, tho not enough t make myself a perfect lover or girlfriend. but i know im not gna stop learning, aiming t be the best for my better other half (:

& since its the affairs of the heart, dont try t reason it out, cos love doesnt make sense and its not affairs of the mind or what. its so true whn people say follow your heart. so if your heart says so, do it. dont be afraid of making mistakes and getting hurt. you'll always have your friends t fall back on. its okay (:

wkly journal entry :D

2010-04-05T11:29:00.004+08:00

t sum up my wkend, it was awesome :D

good friday felt like a saturday, carefree & relaxed. went for a swim in the morning w bbb(: before mtg the awesomest bunch of girls for kfc family feast and wii and camwhoring session which i wasnt ard cos i had an appt for back facial. wasnt as dreadful as i thought since i endured the pain mre easily thn the ticklish moments. and thn a simple dinner before i gt my head spinning watching bbb(: playing l4d2 w his friends at colosseum, which was freaking big! ended my day very late and woke up early t go t the cemetery w my mummy and aunts.

been years since i last went there. contrary t the eeriness i used t feel whn i was a little kid, the cemetery was rlly peaceful and beautiful. amazed me in a way too. but it doesnt evoke too much sadness in me since i've nvr seen some of the people we're offering praying t. aft tt, i wld meet bbb(: and travel t sp t catch his matches. and of course, espada's matches, which were amazing. rlly glad that theyre so much better and emerging as one of the strongest teams in the competition. :D lethargy and headache gt the better of me as i gt into a rlly foul mood and was kind of pissed in the evening. the day ended whn manutd lost and i went t slp! D:

sunday was another long day. the morning rain left the day rlly cooling as i met lin for rowing. its been rlly long since we last rowed and it was truly nostalgic whn we reached scf. every single thing brought back so many sweet memories(: at the end of the session we managed 2triangles w/o capping. even tho its jst t1, but i had a hard time balancing initially but was glad we made it in the end. hopefully its gna be regular and mre ppl joining us :D lunch at astons was great. went sp aft tt only t find out that the matches ended rlly early. and i ended up gossiping w serene which was so unlikely t happen. recent events jst seem t lead t rlly unlikely things! sakae dinner w bbb(: and his family at west coast plaza. and i slpt much earlier aft a long day! but i rlly love the wk cos it was so eventful and so full of LOVE

good (awesome) friday

2010-04-05T11:18:00.002+08:00

love this picture even tho i looked massive and fat and lok kok in it. the ice-cream fight was the most awesome fight ever :D

2010-03-31T10:51:00.002+08:00

dinner and movie w xiu ytd and its awesome in sho many ways. read her tumblr and wld like t reciprocate her thoughts that i enjoyed talking t her because she listened t everything i said without complaint. seems like youre doing your job well as a MOH(:

as i was saying, ytd was awesome in many ways, movie was great cos its our fav rom-com, dinner was good because we've gt some dubious discount which isnt very great t share afterall. so, ask and i'll tell(:

and yes, my sky's cleared and im so glad it is but i nvr know whn its gna be gloomy again, so be prepared t hear me rant soon! D:

love you(:

2010-03-29T11:20:00.002+08:00

mad at you

monday blues' caught me for the first time in the longest while.

walk down memory lane

2010-03-25T15:07:00.002+08:00

lunch w bbb tday and there was a heavy downpour which lasted for v long. so we decided t take a walk at my grandma's old house which was jst nearby. it was rlly nostalgic. i was able t recall alot of fond memories as i walked along the corridor. how i wish i cld go into the hse i've spent my childhood years in. and i promised t bring him t my old hse next time. (:

its fun :D

2010-03-23T11:50:00.001+08:00

caught Remember Me w bbb last night. it wasnt a totally interesting one cos it was pretty abstract at times t me. and the constant backache kept me fr paying full attention t the movie. :(

2010-03-20T01:34:00.002+08:00

taken on the 18th celebrating my niece's bday. and thats basically my family and my sweet boyf! korkor's super cute w that twist! :D

met MOH for dinner jst nw and was so glad that the impromptu dinner cldnt be anymre apt. i enjoyed talking t you abt things i feared but somehow unnecessary. i know everything's gna be jst fine. heh thk you sho much and i wish we'll meet up soon again, probably for wii wheeeee~

2010-03-19T17:26:00.002+08:00

havent been updating much recently. i went for breakout 2010 last sat and it was awesome. speaking of which last sat was such an eventful day. firstly, i snapped my goggles at the swimming pool. in the evening, the strap of my dress snapped. and t top it off, my feet were full of awful blisters at the end of the day. and jst ytd, i snapped my specs while trying t clean them. too much biceps on those arms i guess. and nw im seeing thru my old pair of orange specs which works jst fine :D

mtg MOH for rlly impromptu dinner later.

2010-03-18T10:58:00.001+08:00

no one in this fugly world is ever true t me

and thats the only truth

2010-03-11T12:02:00.002+08:00

caught Dear John last evening. sadly we missed the starting of show by a couple of mins but all's well. nice and touching show, altho i didnt tear. and someone went blowing his/her nose so loudly during the last part of the show, which was such a spoiler! ):

and i want t watch Remember Me (:

2010-03-09T16:58:00.002+08:00

for more thn 1/2yr, a couple of birds' been building nest in between the aircon compressor and a board used t cover the huge hole in our bedroom wall. the aircon men came this aftnn t open up the hole and its 1/3 full of twigs and branches. omg D:

2010-03-04T12:06:00.001+08:00

i'm sitting, w arms wide open like a teddy bear,

terribly in need of a hug :(

2010-03-03T14:46:00.002+08:00

reed asked alphonso hw he managed t maintain such a good relationship with his wife and he simply answered "i married my best friend."

i turned my head and asked him,

"are you my best friend?"

and he said,

"just only."

2010-03-02T17:44:00.001+08:00

sometimes i feel everyone else's gt much more creative juices in their head thn me. and hw ironic is that whn im doing designing nw!

2010-03-01T16:52:00.003+08:00

we went for the exhibition on the quest for immortality jst a wk ago. chanced past fort canning and in we went for a stroll and took this pic(: in fact i enjoyed the stroll more thn the exhibition. well, maybe a bit more cos i love going for exhibitions. but its been a while since we had taken strolls like that. so slow, in our own world, in a historical site with the memorial plaques ard which so aroused my curiosity. no one would so willingly walk the memory lane with me like you did. anw back t the exhibition, it was awesome. t think we thought we were going t be disappointed cos all we saw were sphinxes, vessels, jewellery, sculptures etc whn what we rlly wanted t see was the mummy itself. and as we thought we were at the end of the exhibition, we finally saw it. honestly speaking, there was a sense of eeriness but at the same time, the fascination seemed so much more than that. i was and am still very amazed by the egyptians' knowledge and meticulousness while preserving the deceased. and i like the way they define the passing on of someone as a passage to afterlife. the mummification becomes a celebration of the moving on of the deceased. well executed and beautifully presented.

haha seems like a review of the exhibition. but i think its worth a visit(:

and happy mthsary darling(:

2010-02-25T17:23:00.002+08:00

racing against time t finish some renderings. hopefully im able t leave on time. wkend's gna be full of activities. shd be 2tiring days thats gna make the wkend a good one.

everything's gna be fine.

2010-02-23T17:09:00.003+08:00

i've been working. but i've been thinking alot as well. that these few days' been rlly blissful and happy. and i've come t realise that it isnt that difficult afterall, t be happy. lead a simple life, be contented with what i have now. and amidst the fears and unease i often have, as long as i have you, i know i can be so much happier that i was (:

and you shd too, knowing that im always gna be by your side.

2010-02-23T00:31:00.002+08:00

first day of work was fine. jst that i gt so cranky tday. was so listless during dinner w my lovelies. and was so reluctant t take bus hm so mr awesome came t my rescue. or jst maybe im like a spoilt brat now. way too pampered by him. anw, he was very sweet enough t send my friends hm. west t east and back t west. so tiring but he willingly went the extra miles (:

gotta get used t working and longer time without you sweetheart. i gotta be strong (:

2010-02-19T01:16:00.003+08:00

new year's over for me. am enjoying the remaining days of my long break before im gna get working my ass off. hee mtg my lovelies next mon. like finally cos i miss them so much! gg museum w mr awesome tmr, finally and hopefully. and maybe a swim in the morning :D

m'sia w mr awesome and his family t go according as planned. and tadahh pretty much sums up my long break (:

and i miss you as well, bff (:

2010-02-16T14:45:00.003+08:00

bff flew t aussieland last night. very sad. because its gna be one person lesser for meet up. and couple of mths later, happy apple joan's gna leave for aussieland too. sad too! right nw, resa's at shanghai on hols. bf's out t relatives' hm. me feels tired and lonely and all the very negative feelings. blahhh sho yucky! i've gt sho much i want t do but im feeling super restless :(

-

smtimes its so hard t tell you. no matter hw i try t explain, it doesnt seem t get t you. and that it makes me so disappointed. and nw i resort t lying t you in order nt t be forced. yes, we both get forced. but whether t give in or nt, we still cant force. right nw, im nt feeling good for lying but i feel that its the only way for me. maybe you still think im giving excuses, maybe youre still gg t get mad, but smtimes i cant be bothered, like hw you can get so nonchalant despite my pleas. we're jst gna let it be isnt it? im so tired of trying t fix. or maybe nt fixing it is the best way of fixing things, jst like your approach t our disagreements. or maybe i shd wait until the day you decide t step in and get things right. but am i nt gna wait til that day comes?

2010-02-14T14:16:00.000+08:00

happy new year and happy valentines.
but im like falling sick..

2010-02-10T10:36:00.002+08:00

had a simple family dinner last night, had some great food before me, bbb, mummy and sis went chinatown. well well i seldom go there aft grad and i thought the crowd and atmosphere were good. just that there isnt much to buy cos they were all selling the same thing..so we left there pretty early and i was feeling so tired alr. but still, i play wii aft reaching hm and slpt late :(

cny's finally coming, like i finally felt the mood aft gg chinatown. last day of work tday and shall put up the decorations tmr whn i'm hm :D and im so happy cos im mtg artello for steamboat dinner tmr. hope its gna be good (:

hate dreams

2010-02-04T11:49:00.003+08:00

having dreams at night always make me feel restless the next morning. however, this long dream i had last night left me restless but at the same time, really curious. dreamt abt speaking to this friend whom i havent spoken to in a while. and whatever that person said makes me really curious now. haha like whatever that person said makes sense in real life now. but you know what, i dare not ask and therefore it shall be kept in a corner of my heart and be slowly buried eventually.

on a side note, wkend's approaching and swimming's always on the agenda but my skin's having some kind of heat rash and i guess that got to be put on hold :( but we're gg new year shopping soon!

*excited!*

2010-02-03T10:17:00.004+08:00

jst got into the office moments ago. trying t find things for myself t do!

chinese new year's coming, finally. and the cny's atmosphere is finally starting t set in. i've been happy these days cos bbb drops by often t accompany me. and he got mario bros too! :D :D :D

ok im feeling rlly random, hence the totally random post with stuffs that don't link at all. oh well, new sofa's coming later. actually we all quite like a living without sofa cos its sho BIG but well, its coming so yea..

haha still damn random. ok im gg off t work (:

2010-01-28T14:45:00.000+08:00

with a very cute bunch of girls(:

2010-01-27T10:28:00.003+08:00

was only until last night that i realised how high expectations i've been having for myself. so high that they could reduce me to tears. and that i have a love-hate relationship with it.

hai...what to do?

2010-01-26T12:08:00.001+08:00

late night last night and early early morning today makes me super duper listless and unwilling to work. i just want to go home and watch teevee :(

when the world is on your shoulder

just trust the voice in you

2010-01-24T01:49:00.001+08:00

hate t see you feeling frustrated or upset or whatever
but i cldnt do anything t make you better :(

love song for #1

2010-01-22T15:32:00.001+08:00

So I'll give you my heart and my song

In a world where so much is right

But so much is wrong

Your love is my beginning and I know it won't be too long

Till I see you, I hear you, I love you

beautiful song.

2010-01-21T21:07:00.002+08:00

so now i'm at hm doing nth. sounds loserish but am rlly bored at hm but jst dun feel like gg anywhere. bbb's been very busy lately and we havent had any time for dinner, let alone sitting down and watching tv tgt. HAISSSSSS

on a brighter note, work's pretty much smooth and i'm getting the hang of things. and i've been feeling pretty diligent lately. started t go swimming last wk and am feeling quite accomplished aft a short swim. afterall i'm not a very good swimmer. am quite motivated aft the swim and am looking forward t the next swim. i'm slowly working towards a healthier lifestyle so that i won't feel so guilty eating oily food..

ok the thought of it makes me slightly happier :D

the sky was blue tday

2010-01-18T23:45:00.004+08:00

so the internet at hm's finally done. thks t bbb(:
wldnt have gotten it right myself.

monday blues didnt strike me tday because i was a rlly happy girl tday.
and will always be, darling.

2010-01-16T11:37:00.002+08:00

went down t ntu last night and was great t the girls again. its been a long while. and seeing them in the pool made me so tempted. hopefully i'll get t go down on sunday :D :D

right now am in office waiting t submit my assignment before i can leave. and off i'll go for a swim. been an even longer while since i last swam. i'd want t swim on a regular basis so that it'll rectify my back strain and strengthen my back muscle too. can't wait can't wait!

and thn later, i'm gna shop with mummy and bbb(: very excited to get a new sofa t replace the damn cui one in our living room now.

think its gna be an awesome weekend ahead hehehe

2010-01-14T12:11:00.000+08:00

2010-01-14T11:29:00.001+08:00

and here i have -

a giant pimple near my eyebrow aft eating the butter crab which stupidly has chilli in it! :( :(

sakae :D

2010-01-12T12:04:00.001+08:00

i'm sho happy t meet up w the girls for sakae. even tho its the Nth time there but i'm glad they still acc me there cos i was the one suggested it and was so scared they wld get sick of it! i used t have different grps of friends gg there w me. now, its only them. hehe i took some unglam pictures but decided nt t post them here for i am firstly, lazy and secondly, have alr uploaded them on fb :D xiu must be secretly happy tt she has a bigger picture and thinks tt i love her too much but sui bian la.

lalala dinner w bbb(: later makes me a happy girl :D

2010-01-11T22:50:00.002+08:00

after a rlly hectic day of work, am finally hm sitting the sofa watching tv..

the wkend was good. aft a full day work on sat, i went furniture mall w mummy t find new furniture. and we were def happy w our loots. a couple of pieces at under 1.2k! cant wait for them t be delivered (:

sunday was spent w bbb(: and family. everyone's sho enthu looking at cars. but i felt pretty restless by late aftnn. and he has t leave for work :(:(

and i miss him so much :'(

2010-01-09T12:33:00.001+08:00

me forgives people who two-times because theyre pathetically unloved.

imu*

2010-01-08T12:11:00.002+08:00

2010-01-07T15:46:00.002+08:00

alone in office w quite some work t do. but i'm feeling rlly slpy. probably because of the late night. watched avatar 3d which ended at 1. bathed and only managed t slp at 3. speaking of which, i cant handle avatar 3d well. got me into dizzy spells before the movie hit the halfway mark. in the end i cld only watch without the 3d glasses. -.- was nice. jst that a day's work took its toll on me hence i cldnt rlly enjoy it. am rlly amazed by james cameron's effort. t create new filming technology, new culture, new language. its rlly v interesting. the na'vi ppl looked pretty realistic and the scenes are rlly pretty. but the slight blip of the movie was the ending which was quite predictable i think but n'theless great movie (:

love remains the same

2010-01-06T11:24:00.000+08:00

steamboat+donuts+cookies n creme+heineken

xmas gift exchange

trix's birthday

WII on new year day

overnight WII

i think i have alot of long overdue photos so i guess i shall put up some :D

traces back t last dec. seems like its alot of activities within a mth. and im rlly happy t have met up w them because its alw screamings and laughters and more laughters. what makes all these even more touching is that we've known each other for 3, 4yrs and going 8yrs. its jst amazing whn even aft so long, you cld still meet up with these ppl and feel rlly comfortable w their company. i rlly rlly hope everything remains the same(:

2010-01-04T15:25:00.003+08:00

2010 started with a long wkend and great time spent w lovelies. we're totally addicted t mario on wii. and it was great pity that trix cldnt join us for the crazy overnight mario on wii. a whole aftnn of wii at cheryl's on new year's day, followed by another aftnn of wii at her place again before we went over t my place for more. we finally stopped at 8am sunday morning (!!!) whn xiu and cheryl had t fight their heavy eyelids while gg hm. whereas for me, i hit the bed aft drying my hair. oh, and the 2days of wii had caused huge casualties t our thumbs which are either hurting or swollen. but it was fun floating ard and jumping on one another on the way t breaking past each level. :D

but i guess its some time later til we continue marching past the next world (:

2009-12-31T10:53:00.004+08:00

its the last day of 2009. many would be updating their blogs abt their last 364days. me included. because i believe the best is yet t come. and i think i'm having the best year t date. so i jst want t pen them down before i forget.

its been another emotional year for me. many events wore me down, yet they were the most memorable. some have been rlly painful because it was jst too hard t say goodbye but i knew, at that time, i had t do it, for the better. the process might hurt but t the see the result eventually, i guess it was all worth it.

this year, i've finally graduated fr sp - end of my 3 eventful years. they werent illustrious but truly unforgettable and were what people would say - a rollercoaster ride - full of ups and down. however, i did not peaked. and i wonder when will that be. never mind abt that. but the truth is, it was the 3years that i felt i've rlly lived. because i was old enough t think and know what i wanted. and whn my gradshow came t close, i knew what my next step was, jst that i need what i think was a deserved break.

in the next 1/2year, i did everything at my own pace. there wasnt any deadlines, there wasnt any naggings, there wasnt any frustrations because i cldnt complete any work. i polo-ed, i tour-ed, i slacked, i made my thoughts even firmer thn they were. but there were alot of cryings and struggles once in a while. because i did not want t give up what seems apparent that i had t. and at the end of the 6mths, i decided t take time off and do other things like finding a job.

knowing that i cldnt idle for long, i've decided i shd start getting my bum off the house and work. and w the help of a friend, i got a job! lots of fears and uncertainties due t my low confidence of my abilities but i was glad he was always ard t lend a shoulder, lend an ear. and right now, i'm like feeling rlly comfortable with my job :D

and the best damn thing abt this year - friends. i've met up w lovelies for occasional sakae buffet and surprise birthday celebrations, i've met up w my poly classmates for dinners and random sentosa outing, and i've met up w artello for gatherings and birthday celebrations. i cldnt be any happier because honestly speaking, i thought it'd have been the end of artello srsly. i thought it wld be hard t gather all 7 of us for dinner. but its good t know that everyone bothers t make an effort t meet up and update each other on our lives and stuffs. all in all, these grps of friends cheered me up alot this year. guess i was a little nonchalant years ago. now i understand the wonder of these friends.

and back hm, everything's pretty much the same jst that i spent more time w mummy and my sisters. aft graduation, i practically stopped trgs and theres no submissions t stop me fr gg out. we eat out more often for dinner and spent time catching up and stuffs. honestly, i very much miss the times whn me and my mummy and sisters wld sit down and gossip. rlly noisy but :D

and thn there was jackson - sweetest boy ever. the one who always calm my tiny little heart whenever i get paranoid and upset and worried and blah blah blah. the one who always shares my joy and anger. the one whom i never get angry at for over 5mins. (i know damn loserish) dunno what t do without you sometimes. i hope everything's gna get through and yeah! :D

altho i hope 2010's gna be even better but i figured that we shdnt be that greedy so i wish everyone's gna be safe and happy and love remains the same (:

2009-12-30T15:04:00.002+08:00

dinner ytd was love. was glad everything went well.

seems like this wk's gna be busy. am so upset that i missed alot of tv programmes.

haha dunno why i seemed t be addicted t watching tv these days.

seems like the shows are more t my liking nowadays.

i'm glued t the sofa fr 8pm onwards :D

cant wait for 1st jan. a fun-filled year awaits me.

happy 20th darling(:

2009-12-28T11:20:00.001+08:00

time well spent w teammies and boyf and friends.
thk goodness the shirt was the right size,
thk goodness everyone was there,
thk goodness for the zero-awkwardness,
thk goodness for the enthusiasm,
thk goodness for the laughter,
thk goodness everything was jst right (:

pweety

2009-12-25T14:37:00.001+08:00

have a great christmas!!

2009-12-22T12:00:00.000+08:00

2009-12-22T00:48:00.003+08:00

when love takes over

if i own a good camera,

2009-12-20T19:26:00.006+08:00

then i'll shoot better pictures than whats above.

i like walking around the streets and capture pictures which might be insignificant to the eyes of the world, but they somehow hold certain meaning to me. i do not know what but definitely something. if not i wldnt have taken those pictures in the first place.

just came hm fr a sentosa outing w my polymates.

i'm rlly tired.

and i miss him so.

2009-12-18T12:29:00.000+08:00

love these girls to bits. for the long overdue steamboat, for the many many donuts, for the heineken which i gave up after a sip, for the tub of cookie-n-creme ice-cream with extra toppings of cookies, for the pudding which i was way too full t eat, for the effort and loveliness and bond, i love you girls :D

and of course, you. for the extra miles, for the enduring of my periodical crankiness, for the endless love, for the comfort of your embraces that makes the tears go away each time, youre truly the one for me.

2009-12-15T15:32:00.001+08:00

know your rights, know your limits.

step over the boundary and youre in for deep shit.

2009-12-14T12:19:00.003+08:00

"He does not realize that she is talking to feel better. A man doesn't know that she will appreciate it if he just listens."

Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus.

its like turning into my bible or something cos everything's so accurate in a way or another. however, this implies that i got to change in order to be better too.

something im sho reluctant to do.

-

anw i had a great saturday evening with my lovelies. steamboat aft almost 2yrs. great surprise and awesome company. yep gotta get the pictures uploaded soon (:

2009-12-11T14:23:00.003+08:00

"Falling in love is always magical. It feels eternal, as if love will last forever. We naively believe that somehow we are exempted from the problems our parents had, free from the odds that love will die, assured that it is meant to be and that we are destined to live happily ever after."

Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus.

how freaking true.

but i choose to live in denial.

2009-12-10T10:33:00.002+08:00

feeling abit reluctant t start work right now. feeling restless somehow. anw this blog's turned 5 recently. looking back at my posts, they looked utterly stupid and were so comprehensive compared to now, when most of us blogged with double meanings in our words. sometimes i wonder what we're trying to hide. actually i dunno. maybe to have that mysterious feeling? ok thats pretty lame.

right now, i'm craving badly for kfc, since last night.

2009-12-09T14:21:00.004+08:00

it feels good to be occupied with things. altho it means lesser time t slack around and most of the time its stressful to race against time, but at least at the end of everything, there's nothing but a strong sense of achievement.

i'm pretty busy right now, cos boss just gave me new things to do!

2009-12-08T01:24:00.001+08:00

love love love :D

2009-12-03T11:08:00.002+08:00

so i met up w my poly classmates for a gathering and a belated bday dinner at astons. the queue was long as usual but with the company, its great. the girls were so sweet t bake me a cake with my favourite milo nuggets and pocky on it. but my photography skills suck.

and we had a chillout session at starbucks. the catching up was really great. cant wait for the next one at barrage, hopefully. and hopefully, yvonne and yingying's gna make it too! :D

2009-11-26T14:42:00.002+08:00

is missing alot of ppl right now! :D

2009-11-25T20:36:00.002+08:00

yep thats right, got myself a new blogskin and the first thing i did was t delete all the personal info sections off the blogskin. still prefers t stay anonymous. and if you know who i am, you'll without the name and age and hobbies by the side.

well, its not exactly a very 'me' kind of blog. its neither emo or cheery. its jst a very unnoticeable blog. yep and because its not noticeable and not alot of ppl's reading now. i feel more comfortable expressing myself in the most real way.

long wkend ahead, new bed's coming, lots of cleaning up t be done :)

loves rum and mojito :D

2009-11-23T16:20:00.000+08:00

the night was jst fantastic. and i was overwhelmed. ended up that i was the one who was surprised instead of lin. yep we had our dinner and celebration at timbre and the food's good, music's good, company's awesome. were kept entertained by rum and mojito(: my instax 200 was good too, love the pictures because they speak love :D

cant wait for xmas now :)

fresh again

2009-11-20T15:57:00.002+08:00

seen pictures on fb and got t know that the juniors were back fr taiwan. rlly happy that espada managed t clinch 2nd. (:

you know, if it were t be like a few mths back, i'd probably be green w envy and stuffs. but i guess i'm way past the stage that i get jealous or envious easily. things' jst different now. i've learnt t accept we're all rlly different individuals and we cant get t where others' gone t even though we've put in the effort t. i've learnt t embrace whatever i'm having and what i once had. and actually, i'm learning t accept that all's not gone. i once had a team of eight. but come t think of it, i havent lost it. altho things' changed but at least, we're keeping in contact again, we're getting close again. i guess we've all learnt t put in the effort. and thats what that makes me rlly contented. its fun t re-know your friends again, friends you thought would walk out of your life forever. but with some effort, you could recover what you thought was lost. and honestly, it doesnt take much effort. all it takes is some courage and initiative and we're back t how we were, if not better (:

im missing my lovelies alot. hope they're all healthily mugging hard for exams. jiayou, (:

2009-11-16T11:18:00.002+08:00

these days' been dreadful. havent felt so lost in a while. so much things t do, so much misery, i rlly dunno what t do. somehow i jst feel like putting things aside and run away.

-

on a side note, i pampered myself w an instax 200 last saturday and i hope t try it out soon.

2009-11-10T10:32:00.001+08:00

complications

sitting around (:

2009-11-02T23:51:00.002+08:00

well, havent been updating much. cheryl's bday update's been delayed time and again all because of my laziness t upload pictures. ):

anw, i met up w artellians over the wkend. it was good because of kj and joan. haha totally made our evening. but it made me hate long tables even more. because we only got t catch up at starbucks, whn we sat ard and gossiped and laughed like nobody's business. think kj and bbb(: totally grossed us out w their imitations..hee and jo's gf got me 20% discount off my caramel frapp :D yepp i like simple meet-ups like this. but its a pity mummy nad cldnt make it cos little zayden got her so tired. but next time, everyone's gna come. no one is t pangseh! :D

2009-10-30T15:58:00.000+08:00

see you in another 5hrs' time (:

2009-10-29T15:42:00.001+08:00

doubt anyone can help. right now i'm feeling so empty inside my brain. no idea how t complete it by sunday. and i'm so freaking cranky and whiny now cos its still 2hrs t end of work, and the day's been mercilessly long and mundane enough.

i jst want t go home and do nothing ):

2009-10-23T00:29:00.002+08:00

i don't want t look back.
i don't want t reminisce.
move on, move on.

jst don't look back.

2009-10-22T22:26:00.000+08:00

more of cheryl's bday celebration t come! :D

6 more days

2009-10-22T10:32:00.002+08:00

~~expect kallang waves at changi airport hahaha!~~

its single-digit countdown. the hm definitely felt different for the past 4mths. but its gna be back t how it was. (:

2009-10-16T00:00:00.002+08:00

alright, im so freaking lazy t type. but heres some pictures taken over the last couple of days. hahaha bbb(: and mummy were trying t help me get rid of a moth, as in jst t chase it out of the hse. speaking of it, its quite a rare moth cos its white w light coloured stripes. fr far, it jst looked like a piece of paper stuck on the wall. yeppp and there, the 2nd pic of my boyf, with durians on his right hand. and he kindly bought some hm for himself and mummy. while i had honey chicken(: and thn the next two, acc t mummy, was a 'present' fr korkor t me. and whn i opened it up, i laughed like shit. he put some masak masak into a mooncake box and said its a present for xiaoyi. but sho cute cannn. and lastly, a picture of that cute muka w his bear at the side...he so gladly sat there and posed for me t snap a shot of him(: aft which i walked back t office for work.

2009-10-15T13:47:00.001+08:00

these days have been good, im feeling very motivated t work.
maybe not ytd whn i was jst whiny cranky and slpy.
but now i feel revitalised(:

-

i find my paradise,
when you look me in the eyes.

2009-10-14T11:37:00.003+08:00

and then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.

so, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you.

GCF, NWC. TY!

2009-10-13T01:01:00.007+08:00

korkor's self-declared ahma's day!

aft a run,

caramel is love,

moh(:

astons' with,

bbb(:

home,

botak lift lobby!

a colourful palette of laminates,

that brightens my day at work,

in an extremely comfy office,

little rascal w his AVATAR!

always so cheeky,

always so adorable,

bbb's niece,

her brother,

way more obedient thn justin han!

and their little cousin! (:

second wk of work has commenced. feeling rlly good currently. and im so gna enjoy before the stress starts coming in. rlly enjoyable days recently. seeing korkor play wii is so funny. the way he stood while seeing his very slow ball roll down the alley t knock out the pins and how he cheered 'nice spare' whn he came up w one..(:

of course all these fun wldnt have been possible without you sweetie. youre jst so amazing as always(:

lastly, counting down t you coming back!(: