"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

as i was lying on bbb's lap stoning, i began t reminisce everything throughout my 3yrs in sp. i'm rlly glad t have made friends, and t top it off, made true friends i'll rmb forever cos these ppl helped me so much along the way. no doubt every single of them's seen me fall and stand up umpteen times. its not thanksgiving, its not friendship day or whatsoever, i jst want t thk these ppl.

1. xueyi, linda, hong - my three closest classmates and have helped me so so much throughout my 3yrs in ID. know me inside out, my darkest secrets and my little little habits. thks t them, i managed t submit my projs, assignments on time, have ppl t do notetaking for me during crits, alw there t give me moral support, make me laugh, make my life in ID so much better. and they are my regular mates for sakae buffet apart fr my lovelies and bff + pt! <3

2. aaron ong - upon thinking hard, i then realize our friendship began in 2006, when we went sarawak for gyl camp. you've been a nice guy, taking care of me whenever you can, esp during our cookhouse proj, thk you so much for helping throughout the proj. its nvr your fault t have gotten me into the grp. in fact, i've learnt so much while doing tt proj. apart fr tt, you've been v entertaining w your jokes that few can appreciate haha yep thks for those encouragements and help, esp in 3dmax! (:

3. yvonne soh - my classmate and itp colleague. yep thk god we were posted t the same company, so we endured the 9wks tgt, equal amt of good and bad hehe! those sneaking-into-the-office-lunch, uncountable bottles of sunkists, working-whole-day-w/o-lunchbrk were unforgettable. how i wish we'll get t work tgt. (:

4. artello - even tho it was a pity, i thk you girls for the once-so-pretty memories and experiences, chalets, aft-trgs-chillouts, trgs tgt and dinners. i rlly hope we'll meet up as a whole someday soon. <3

5. bff - my one-and-a-half-yr bff. woah so its been so long alr. thks for being there w me during tt night, and those days when we hang out unusually often tgt. pretty memories! so is your awfully long hair! 2nd t resa on my list of DRASTIC CHANGE PHYSICALLY i miss it hahahaha! i rlly miss us gg out tgt, walking aimlessly, chilling somewhere, gossiping abt anything we know. and i'll NVR EVER forget the day i told you i was attached. DAMN CLASSIC EXPRESSION. hahaha hope t see you soon k! hugs hugs kiss kiss muackz muackz HAHA <3

6. pt kara jayne - my pt for almost a yr alr. you top my list of DRASTIC CHANGE PHYSICALLY. thks for alw alw being an sms away or a date away whenever i need you. for being such a sensible girl, offering sensible advices everytime i run into trouble. i think i wldnt have survived, in many many aspects, if not for you srsly. for the past 3yrs, you've been my awesome hkcafe, nyny, starbucks, all fastfood restaurants partner. hahaha yepp! continue t be strong and i rlly hope we'll go on a overseas trip tgt w jo soon! <3

7. lin - my superwoman k! survived the 4mths plus trgs w me. til the end. youre rlly amazing. we were nvr close, til the last 4mths of trgs. thk you for being there, til the end, w me and putting up a great fight w me. altho we havent been meeting up enough, i rlly miss you alot alot alot k! we'll meet up soon! NOVEMBER BABIES RAWK! <3

8. lex - its super ironic. how did we on earth became close? you've been one of my role model, independent, strong, a mind of your own. i thk you for offering rlly cool advice, even tho we might not have realized them. you, hold some of my darkest secrets, and i know i can count on you not t spill them out. i miss our chicken rice and beef hor fun. meetup soon aft fyp and exams yea? (:

9. fiasco no. 2 - haha random t address you like tt but yea. i think i owe you so much. rmb those days when you trained us up, rmb those days when we trained tgt at kallang, all the littlest things happened there were rlly unforgettable. rmb how you played w muka muka, rmb how you stood by me on that fateful day when things went wrong. ): even tho youre not good w your words but your presence showed your concern. youre special, too. youre my sweetest little daddy (:

10. mummy - needless t say, youre like a miracle when things went super duper wrong and difficult. you jst came in time t rescue us. thks t you, the girls are rlly a grp of competitive players which will def shine. your nvr-give-ups influenced us not t and your meticulousness made us improve. til this day, i still feel sry for not delivering the medal as promised. nth said or done will bring it back but thks so much (:

11. yanli, jo & pat - 3impressive juniors. you girls are amazing. i admire your nvr-give-ups and the eagerness t learn. i'm so freaking proud of you girls for the achievements you have. thk you for not ostracizing me haha and trg so damn hard. i def feel safe passing the baton t you girls, knowing that you'll train hard still, and at the same time, train up the new batch of girls. all the best (:

12. this is the bonus, on top of whats above. its a surprise package. nobody wld have expected this. it was such a short introduction t the story that unfolded. youre one amazing boy. your appearance shifted my train of thoughts. fr a highly irritating senior who got on my nerve t my best companion, tts surely a huge transformation. nvr forget tt day, even tho everything happened so fast that i was unable t explain in detail. but it was tt impulse in us tt brought us tgt isnt it? youre the only person i can bring w me even as i leave sp, light or what? no amt of thk you will ever suffice because theres gg t be so much more im gg t owe you. but you know i'll be there by your side, alw. ok? i love you, jackson goh w l! <3>

lastly, this one person i'd love t thk. for bringing me so much lovely memories which may seem insignificant but meant alot t me. for maturing me with the events that gradually unfolded. i'm jst glad tt we're still friends, talking and joking and the little concern and encouragement and all. all the best in the future and i wish we'll all meet up in future. (:

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