"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

something's going on these days and it definitely affected me and is still affecting me. dont wish t elaborate further so yea. feels like i'm somehow trying hard t put on a smile. not exactly so, until i feel the emotions suppressing inside me unknowingly being let out. it felt terrible instantly but i cant deny i felt a whole lot better aft letting them all out. before that i was still thinking if it was a mistake t sign up for a comp cos that meant having t fork out time t train on top of the heavy workload and t cope with the current situation. but i guess there's alw a way if there's the will. so i'm going all out, t make every attempt t get things right productive. it'll be hard but i'm prepared t try. in the upcoming 2mths or so, i'm going t make every minute count. be it on work, trg, family, friends or bbb, those moments spent will never be doubted. then again i think, things arent as complicated nor pessimistic as i think. i'll be fine, i know it.


youre awesome. for lending your ears and shoulders, for giving countless encouragements and assurances, for the big big beary hugs that wrap me like a baby bear, youre simply amazing. wldnt have know how t smile for the evening if not for the things you've done, esp the space you've created for me t calm down and think things through. that long moment of silence you've given. and in a matter of time, i was laughing and joking with you again, lashing sarcastic remarks at you and poking you again. all i want t say is, you make me happy when skies are grey. haha but you definitely know how much i love you right? hee (:


oh yar, pictures will be up in the next entry yea? let me emo abit first pls? (:

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