"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

as i mentioned previously that the walk home triggered many thoughts in me, i began t ponder upon bgr. i wondered issit rlly so sweet and so fortunate t be in a r/s. i have no doubts and regrets committing myself into a r/s i must say, but i jst happened t have so many questions. young and curious mind i must say. i know its not smooth-sailing all the time, for sure. i know there will be lots of obstacles along the way. i know there will be moments of paranoia and moments of i-believe-in-my-other-half-strongly. i know it all, but what if all these fail you? what if all the paranoia were t be purely women's instinctive sixth sense? what if all the obstacles you've fought thru tgt were nth but silly thoughts that it'll make us stronger? what if all the smooth-sailing were a pretence and its jst building up t a separation? but luckily, a r/s jst happens t be nvr smooth-sailing, hence the worry of pretence is totally uncalled for. falling in love is uncalled for, too. it jst comes knocking on you when youre totally unprepared, unless youre the one knocking haa. but bgr taught me, and is still teaching me, t be mature and rlly cool at handling all the problems thrown at me. altho i still suck at it, but i'm picking it up bit by bit and i'm getting better. have faith in me, i can do it hee!

i daresay im happily attached t a handsome old man w the youngest heart (pls dun scold me because its the unbreakable fact!!) and i wish for all my friends (you know who you are) t be as happy as me even tho i emo at times. but i'm happy, so be as happy as me! :D :D :D

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