"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

so i conclude i've been slacking and taking breaks off trgs ever since comp's over. the only productive thing i've done by far is packing my wardrobe. cleared some clothes off which mummy will send t salvation army i think. well, i hope i'll get my ass t gym and running tmr. havent been gymming for at least 6wks and i'm getting flabby all over. urgent need t get myself back t gym on a regular basis but sch is starting soon and i dunno how t plan my time well, rlly. i've failed this so badly and i got t bear the consequences for being such a lazy bum. but you know, there's so much for me t give up, t forget, t embrace once again. i need t be strong again. what say you?