"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

its been a long while since i've cried hard over something. the last being many months ago. xy said i should stop being so emo. am i? issit wrong t let my emotions flow freely? am i supposed t suppress myself? i dunno, maybe she's right cos somehow i sound like a whiny little girl who's always immature. i tried t work t run away fr those thoughts. but honestly speaking, i cldnt concentrate. they jst flashed through one after another, how infuriating. the effects are starting t show. i cldnt help but sat down on my sofa, and started t think hard. i think its time i face the reality. i should rlly make a decision, t give up something or t struggle. i've been running away fr these for so long, always thinking things will eventually turn out alright on their own. but how naive i was. how would things be fine when i din even come up w a solution?

i know no one can interfere with my decision and i know the most they can do is t advise and motivate and support my decision. but i'm srsly in a dilemma. if i choose A, i'd be letting so many ppl down. furthermore i could have walked that path 9months ago. but if i choose B, i'll have a lot t work on and a lot t sacrifice. neglecting people and things i don't wish t. should i be rational or should i follow my heart?

towards you, i feel most apologetic. but because you havent give up, i cant. i'll be a jerk if i do so.
towards you, i feel most grateful. because you taught me t be strong, i will be strong.






i'm always gonna worry about
the things that could break us

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what say you?