"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

like smoke getting into your eyes. idiotically watery and nose feeling..i dunno..sour? i hate it. for behaving like a sore loser somehow. letting so many people down, i am guilty. ranting at so many people these days because i just couldn't control myself. pardon me for all the crude language but i just can't calm myself down.

and i'm only left with 1 week til attachment ends. but that fucking boss is like trying to kill us by giving us ridiculous deadlines. COME ON LAR A FULL-TIME STAFF ALSO CANT MEET THE DEADLINE GIVEN THE FUCKING HUGE WORKLOAD. i am just damn peeved. din feel like working and doing all those autocad drawings. just feel like sleeping all these miseries away. its really hard. for these 9 weeks, its polo and itp. why can't i just have slacker itp like the rest? i've lost myself these 9 weeks. i'm feeling so weak and helpless.

when youre feeling very frustrated from the sidelines, let me tell you: i'm feeling doubly frustrated. because i wasnt able to do what i want to. its like mind not synchronising with the body. they become two separate entities. its a damn sucky feeling. and with that damn buzzer threatening to go off anytime, i'm feeling the urgency much more than you do ok? and that sentence, it was really, really hurtful. to the max, seriously. tears threatened to give way upon seeing it.



argh why am i such a crybaby? ): what say you?