"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

miserable is the word. was bloated and at the same time, miserable. my eyes seemed red. like as if tears were about to roll down. in fact they had already. actually i was unable to describe how i felt. what, or rather, who's exactly the one that made me so miserable? i dunno. feeling that so many things just had to take place simultaneously, in fact at the same time that i was just unable to react to them. i don't like to be accused. well i'm sure neither of you fancies that. but this kind of thing just had to happen to me and i was seriously damn peeved upon hearing that.

hello? if you havent seen my effort then don't discount me just like that. and who gives you that right to do so?

i've never felt so defensive before. i admitted to none of that person's accusations. just bullshit. i mean i've tried okay. its not that i just sat around and gloated over whatever that's taken place ok? i know you meant well. i know youre just trying to tell me what's going on. but mind your words please. they are really hurtful ok. no, its DAMN. made me feel like an irresponsible idiot who's slogged for nothing.

that aside. although it was a loss, but i guess we did not too bad. althought i said i don't want any apologies fr anyone, personally i felt i owed each an apology. because i wasnt concentrating hard.

and we lost.



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i know i can't always count on you
i got to have my own backup plans
in case you've decided to abandon me
i really dunno
somehow we just cant bridge the gap
that's been existent since i dunno when

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