"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

alright i am just tired but i'm forcing myself to stay awake and continue with my assignments which are sadly, due tomorrow. well, its been tiring. sleeping at 5am in the morning and woke up 1/2 hr earlier for no reason. headed for work like a sleepyhead and was so so listless at work. until our company's carpenter and my boss' convo abt designing an altar. it was highly entertaining when both tried to compromise, arriving at an ideal design. but seriously, i see no need in designing an altar. i believe the owners can get one themselves yea. haha

a day of hard work ended after short but consecutive meetings with suppliers. and off i zoomed to meet xiu for dinner at ms clarity. we missed it on sat because that outlet at purvis st was like full house. so we headed for the one near my secondary sch. and it was empty. alright i find the place not too bad. no gst, surcharge and comes with a free jug of iced water. self service somemore. call me giam. i drank as if they're some heavenly water. HAHA we just talked non-stop. about the random things that's been bothering us. highly entertaining as well. until like 10, xiu's sis called to say she'll send her home and will give me a lift as well! ;D x gazillion cos i guess i was getting too tired and giddy due to the lack of sleep. and i guess i'll feel even more uncomfortable taking the bumpy ride home, alone. ):

and yes, its just 2 more days. all of a sudden, its like fast approaching. maybe its just me. i've always felt under-prepared. there's always this fear lingering and i see that no amount of assurance can take this fear off me. i really wish that i'm able to perform and not crack under pressure or whatever. whatever the outcome may be, as long as i can see the effort, i'm contented, really.


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i'm bidding goodbye to yesterday
embracing the new with magnanimity
i'm leaving behind the sorrows
welcoming the world with love

Labels: the sweetest goodbye

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