"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

the sugar rush is still there. these pics are awesome. i yearn for more. (:

another day of hard work gone. and bad cramps just had to come and make me worse. grahhhh i din feel like doing work, i din feel like attending meetings, i din even feel like replying my boss' uncountable 'geok cheng, where's my statement of account?' and 'where's my plan and drawings'. but what can i do? i just had to do them all. sometimes i do feel like shutting him up especially today. cos today just wasnt my day. i'm feeling so so unwell. damn it but thankfully, today's over. i hope the cramps don't act up again tomorrow. i'm going to have another long day and dinner date with xiu. i hope my cramps don't screw things up. and before i realise competition's next weekend, i realise i don't have anymore time to train. damn it. i think i'm like damn screwed up. to make things worse, so many issues are like left hanging on a thin thread that's about to snap. i'm so afraid everything's gonna go haywire altogether. i think i'd just die mannn. GOSH ):

but i guess we all are born selfish. we do want the best for ourselves solely at times. well i feel we should look at the bigger picture then. wanting the best not just for ourselves, but for everyone too. learning to share will bring you to a different level of excellence.

please grant me a wish: promise me everything's gonna be fine.

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i guess its just hard to have the best of both or many. and it always end up demoralising upon the receival of results or knowing the outcome. i know them all. but since all these are expected, why not just look on bright side and hope for the better. of course not without giving it a shot once again. continue to trust and trust and trust. everything will be fine eventually. i know its going to be hard to prove myself given a short time, but i'll try and try and try. i'll never give up. really. cos i'm bullet-proof, i think. ;D

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