"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

up from an undisturbed sleep
still aching all over yet again but i'm happy.
be it lazing at hm or going out for a walk.
its a cheerful day.

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recently i've come to terms with a lot of issues and understand what ought to and what ought not to be forced. in the past, i've tried hard to make things go my way many times and often, they ended up hurtful, tearful. as much as its good to abide by one's principles but sometimes, its better not to be so persistent. you'll only end up making life miserable for yourself. i'd still yearn for a carefree life, even though its near impossible. but i guess the most i can do is to follow my heart, don't think too much. only then i won't be having so much what ifs lingering and my days won't be so gloomy.

i guess i just need to embrace what comes to me with an open heart. not fearing the hardships and consequences that will follow inevitably. brace up and i'll be a stronger girl.

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I've never been the one to open up
But you've always been the voice within
The only warmth from my cold heart what say you?