"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

signed in to blogger for almost 3 hrs and im blogging only now. ytd's training was a rare scene. been some time since i see so many girls at polo training. and because of this, i got to doing keeping lesser cos there were more keepers ard. but guess what? i mastered handroll!! like finally. but i hope this time i can truly and totally master it. haha the reason for wanting to practise it was abit lame. i wanted to practise paddle roll first cos kangjun aka the akuma was 'testing' all of us. one by one. all gotta be cap by him and have to handroll up but i still dunno how to!! so i got jo and lilin to help me with it. after a couple of paddle rolls, i sort of mustered all the courage to attempt handroll. guess what? i actually got up on the first try!!! (: like totally heavenly for me!! so i kept practising until i heard my name called. wah the feeling was like going for o lvl's orals. rowing towards him was a nervy one. wahaha i sounded a lil over but that's how i felt. he actually tried to distract me and cap me but i just asked him to quickly push me. i sort of saw thru his trick lar.. hahaa but the happy thing was that i din panic. thou he threw my paddle away which means i have to either handroll or eject. but i din eject! (: sense of achievement and 3 cheers to xiaohuang. (((: so from next training onwards, i gotta practise handroll every now and then so that i wun forget how to and i wun panic during match if i kena hand-tackle. GO XIAOHUANG! -another session of self-psychoing- played 2 matches with the senior girls. wooo we scored against them and one match ended with a draw. was quite happy that our girls scored some good goals. on the negative side, i din keep well. let in some easy goals. ): gotta jiayou more le..

finally got the gift for my mortal. im so sorry for not doing anything for her before that but i made it up by accompanying to shop. haha sounds damn obvious who issit but i guess she wun read my blog so there...walked thru bugis street to get her the gift. as i was sunburnt from ytd's training, i was actually feeling very miserable. whenever someone brushes past me, i feel tortured. its like my skin being torn off. damn pain can!!!

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