"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

well. i guess i've changed alot ever since i came to sp. yeah. character. appearance. physique. haha just a lot lar. anyway. i thought i could stay at home on friday to rest after coming back from sarawak, training, chalet, training. but got a msg that gyl peeps gotta go back to sp for some meeting and stuffs like that. but I FELT CHEATED. only lin xiong and me were there representing BE lar. but it was worth it. we got FREE LUNCH haha!!! buffet at staff centre. GOOD STUFFS sia..haha. riberd joined us from work. he told us something which the MM peeps get to know thru guessing haha. i mean it was so so so obvious lar. ((: haha. yea then we spent time talking, circulating the photos, gossiping. it's still abt the camp itself and the post camp activities. haha. they're nice people. i dun really get to interact with them during the camp. but yeah, i guess i've done so at the lunch. me and linxiong took 3 plates of food altogether. according to linxiong, one of the seniors, boston, took 3 plates ALONE. haha. that's alot. and we had ice creams. i had 2 servings. ((: after the fun, we left. linxiong was late in meeting his friends for KLKK. then me and riberd went suntec to wait for meisy. man I MISS HER SO SO MUCH!!!! but she's not mine anymore )): haha. we had to walk some distance before getting into suntec. security was tight..we reached there at 3 plus 4? yeah then we met her for a short while cos she needa get back for the IMF thing. but before that i spilled my ice milo at macs. the people was so kind to get me another ice milo for FREE ((: haha. yeah then we were damn sian while waiting for meisy to finish her stuffs. so we went window shopping. haha talked a lot as well..oh we went for foot massage..15 mins on the osim massage thing. DAMN RELAXING sia..haha then we walked for another 1 hr before going back again. although the recommended time is 15 mins. we did half an hour this time. felt like floating after each massage. heehee. then i bought a NEW BALANCE shorts. heehee..then we went BK after getting a sheet of coupons. but we went macs instead cos the seat was damn uncomfortable sia. haha. yeap then meisy came. poor girl arh..she's carrying a huge bag containing the camera. poor thing sia. so i carried for her. considering our vast difference in built, it was nothing for me ((: yea. haha. then we walked back to cityhall. and parted ways. thank god riberd was sending her home, she wasnt in the right condition to go home alone. SHE"S TOTALLY EXHAUSTED!! yea. promised to meet up soon.

sat training. near 6 hours of polo. started our serious training. had a first taste of a polo match. fun. but yea, we din do really well. we were slow and lacked a lot of stuffs lar. but come on, we'll improve. DUN BE DISHEARTENED!! yea. heehee. for once, i felt that there's friendly people in canoe polo other than the girls. there's this senior called kang jun, he's very nice to the girls. he taught us some skills and were constantly encouraging us ((: yep. haha. then the senior girls taught us the formation. but the main thing is to train harder: arm strength, boat speed, etc..ooh i cap. while playing monkey. i couldnt get up sia. )): quite malu actually. haha. i was panicking too much that i cant even do paddle row )): if i din remember wrongly, according to the girls, kang jun and ray tried to turn me over. yep i think i pressed on to ray's boat and turned over. phew, guess i almost died haha. but i lost my hairband again..and that's 2 times le )): one yellow and one blue. yea. then my thumbs had blisters. after holding on to the paddle for i dunno how long. DAMN PAINFUL )): then i din go kallang cos i think i cannot tahan lar.

I DIN GO TRAINING TODAY EITHER. feeling guilty le. because the blisters were damn painful de. i really cannot take it. yea, i also told riberd i'm not going to meet him and meisy later. )): haix. but what's happy is there's manutd's match today. ((:

listening to: chemistry - kimi wo sagashiteta. what say you?