"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

whoo. the 2-day bintan trip was short but fun. haha. the excitement started once we reached the tanah merah.waited for yunni for A LONG TIME!!! haha and yongming suddenly popped out of nowhere. yeap then we took cab there lor. skipped the waiting and boarding of ferry thing. then we took a bus to the resort. huiyu was having fun with my phone. taking pics..haha, we were sort of welcomed by the hotel ((: yeap we went to our rooms first..me and yunni, huiyu and ruiting were at 4th level. pengyu and yongming, hidir and shaojie were at 1st level. we unpacked our stuffs and decided to meet at me and yunni's room. guys being guys, were up to no good!! they started to wreak havoc on our beds. wah. total chaos. and they stacked themselves on one another with hidir sitting on top. crazy. then we went to do our assignments. then we met at..shaojie and hidir's room i think. then shaojie started to do his flasher thing. wearing the bathrobe and flashing in front of us. think they took a photo of him in that. haha. we went swimming also. ok. the guys started to 'fight'..or 'battle' at the pool. and they dived. oops. it said NO DIVING. haha and they threw us girls into the pool. i got the BIGGEST impact on the calm water. cos i'm FAT!!!!!!! haha. yea we ate at a cafe beside the pool. we ate the KIDS' MEALS cos apparently, the kids' meals looked more attractive. haha yea but the portion was small lar. i ate CHICKEN RUN! haha nuggets and fries lar. then we went to the beach. had some inter-diploma games. yeap then after that, we played captain's ball. haix, i was SO SO BAD. couldnt catch the ball well. gaga. my leg still hurt a little from the blocking of shots from the guys. i couldnt catch the ball but can only use my leg to block them off. haha. yep. then we went to another swimming pool and had a dip. cool. swimming in the night is fun. but i cant see clearly. yeap. then we went back to bathe and the guys went to buy cup noodles. we met at huiyu and ruiting's room for dinner and stuffs. yep. played truth or dare. but it became truth all the way. haha. hmm. 12 people on 2 beds. busying gossiping. whoo. haha then all became tired le. pengyu started to tell ghost stories. haha. also switched on the tv and knew that there was going to be boro's match. wanted to stay on and watch. but me and hidir cant tahan le. haah we slept..around 2 singapore time...10 people in a room. 5 on beds, 5 on the wooden platform beside it. COOL sia. haha. woke up at 6 plus singapore time. went to watch sunrise. was walking along the beach. but went to the pool and dipped my legs in it as i saw the sunrise. it's very nice being alone at the pool. very quiet and calm with. i went up again. went down with yun ni. then i had to urge to go swimming. so we went UP again to change. hidir came along. so swim swim swim. they went up to bathe and get the others to go for buffet. i din go cos i lazy haha. yuyin, lili, xinyi and yilin came also..haha. i SUNTANNED. but not much effects leh. :/ haix. then went to bathe. and couldnt find the rest. we needa go to ruiting's room for my room's BLANKETS, PILLOWS and KETTLE. haha we basically camped at ruiting and huiyu's room lar. haha yep. then found them. they were shopping lar. hahaa took so long and we needa check out at 12 lor. were a little late though. then had inter-diploma sharing session. yep then lunch. woah, we were late. supposed to report at 3. but we were a little over. haha. yep. took the bus to the terminal. the ferry trip back was quite bad. quite bumpy. ruiting and huiyu cant really take it. but alot were sleeping like dead logs. me, yunni and hidir sat together, xinyi, lili and yuyin were in front of us. we were talking about those kind of things lar. continued from yesterday night and what the lect told us while waiting for the ferry. haha, realised it's too late to talk about them after staying there for a night already. din really do much before entering a hotel room. only looked under the bed only. ahaha. yep reached singapore at around 6 plus. haha took 35 to get to tanah merah. huiyu threw her bag out of the bus to me cos she had to carry yongming's BOMB~!! yes. then 6 of them - - including yunni, hidir, pengyu and shaojie took a train. i wanted to but i saw 12 coming le and i'm lazy to walk so i took a bus. ok, i almost dozed off on the bus lar. haha..yea finally reached home!!! hahaa i slept before 11. i knew i will sleep early de haha. then woke up at 8 leh. 9 hours of sleep is good enough ((: ok, doing CIP later. need to buy thinner and masking tapes. yep. later meeting sis and maybe teresa also. going NUM again!!! haha ((: i want to watch polo match. shall go EARLY on saturday. dead serious.

listening to: goo goo dolls - here is gone what say you?