"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

today normal lar. lect. lunch. workshop to do model. yar. then training. oh. was praying that it will rain so dun have to run long distance. but what lar. the weather just went better before the start of training. ): yah. so run lor. ran another way but still led to that long stretch of route beside the canal. did circuit there. then did the crabwalk at the last stretch. my legs, esp left calf, ached like siao lar. then sherman asked us to some yoga-like stretching, very comfortable sia...((: but the journey back was bad. my calf kept aching so i was lagging all the way until the traffic light. darren was very nice. kept encouraging me to go on. yah after the traffic light, teresa ran with me. at one point i stopped. but nearing the sch, i started to run again, bearing with the pain lor. haix. then they did some short exercise which i din do cos it was just PAINFUL lar..then did pull-ups. joan's fast lar. i havent rest enough then she's done le. but she's nice, also encouraging me throughout. haha. then we did...duckwalk. shant describe the process cos it's just saddened me. it's tough lar. )): then did strokings and ball passing. yar. saw sherman and timothy did k2 land strokings. just good lar. ok. yah training finally ended. waited for joanish, lilin and teresa and we went to the mrt station together...ok, lilin told me she's the one who gave the number to the senior de. i was like..hmmm. half angry half relieved. not say angry lar. maybe she should have asked me first? relieved that i know the truth now. ok. it was all a prank i guess haha. then yar took the train back with teresa and malcom. yar. sat on the floor and chatted. stood up when we reached city hall and we felt like: where's our legs?? my day just practically ended after i alighted. nth much happened.

legs still aching.

doing model tmr.

now too tired le.

haix. i am just pathetic.

listening to: aqualung - baby goodbye what say you?