"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

today as usual. training. however, i felt stupid. i dunno why, i can't do paddle row. i could last week. just dunno why this week cant. i guess lizhen really is a crucial factor. muahaaha. then we travelled to kallang. it was cold on the train. we arrived before 130. pheww.

some people canoed the boats to our practice venue. and those who didnt canoe(me..included), had to help those carry bottles and slippers. haha, i had to help yongming lar. but tref did a good deed by wearing them cos she didnt wear hers and it was damn hot. if not, her feet would have been baked. haha.

anyway, we did strokings. i was quite okay already. so i helped joan. but i sort of let her down lar, cos i wasnt a good teacher, in the end, the seniors did the job. then me and joan canoed T2. i did the back as usual cos i am a good copycat! yah, but she got a little phobia for water so her temper wasnt so good. but i thought it was okay lar. she apologised, made me so paiseh sia.

then i got a chance to do T1. i was so nervous. the guys very bad lar, they pulled my boat. i thought what happened, cos i was already paddling but it wasnt moving lor. okay anyway, i almost cap. in the middle of the river. scared sia...marilyn did after me but she was quite nervous so she did a short one. i remembered one of the guys wanted to do after...i cannot remember who. but the senior was like asking us to get ready to go back. poor guy... but he got to canoe back lar. anyway, the bottles of water were so so warm lar when i was washing my legs off the sand.

while walking back, i was telling marilyn that i got a bad feeling that someone behind might trip me. but luckily, nothing happened. if not, i sure kill him.

then we had to wash everything. i washed the bottles lar. of course that was fine. but what's happening next was even scarier then cap-ing (capsizing) - to arrange the bottles. wah, the bottles were like almost toppling lor. me, karen and yongming were so nervy throughout the entire process. wah, after putting in all the bottles, he quickly locked it. it was like..pheww! what an achievement! then we had pumpings....130 of them, i think. my palms pain sia.

but the most torturous thing would be, i am burnt, badly. my back and chest were red!!! somemore tomorrow got training. wah, i think i'm skipping polo. i think potter - the senior, heard me lar. so yah, i wanna rest and start on the assignment for e-learning. if not, i'm positive there will be no time de...

anyway, marilyn said my chinese very power....? issit....? i dont think so. issit because of the idioms? haha....funny.

okay. i am tired. shui jiao le...

listening to: yuna ito - precious. (super nice!!!) what say you?