"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

listening to *like toy soldiers* by eminem, and somehow think that i am like one, being manipulated and dun have the freedom to do what i really want to, maybe that accounted for my stress? hahaa

well, i think i am grey, i dunno why...looked up and found out more about grey:

the colour seen commonly in nature
created by mixing black and white in different proportions
depends on the amount of light, human eye can interpret the same object as grey or other colours

well, it applies to us, depending on the source(s) given, then we can interpret what is right or wrong. so many things happened lately and because there's no light, i am confused, i dunno what's right, what's wrong. maybe truth had been mixed with some black, it became impure, it became something fake. something white appears in front of you, it might not be what it appears to be, it might be artificial, it might be altered.

i believe we shouldnt totally believe what we see or what we hear. there's a need to analyse things before coming to a conclusion. and i think that's something i lack. impulsive is what i have and i know i have to change to be able to feel things in details and not leaving out important things




what say you?