"letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means moving on. it is one of the hardest things a person can do. starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. but as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. it means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so."

okay, i've chatting with xiu and told her how i feel about certain things and i felt better and i think it's because of stress that comes naturally as the O's is approaching.

immortality is the word that flashes across my mind and i also dunno why. from what i think, immortality is something that cannot be attained physically but can be mentally. it's totally impossible. no matter how old you live to, be it 100 years or 200 years, you still will die. imagine. how disgusting it will be to see someone looking like a demon, walking past you. that will be so scary. but to attain immortality mentally, you allow yourself to do more things than others. you feel that you have a whole lot of time to spend, to waste. and you really enjoy yourself thoroughly. but the key to attain immortality is to stay happy. once you stay happy, you feel that you are the most fortunate person in the world. you dont have to be as rich as bill gates. as famous as david beckham. as handsome as keanu reeves or as pretty as liv tyler. just think that you're happy, you will be happy. and you're on your way to immortality.

actual meaning:the concept of existing for a potentially infinite or indeterminate length of time
what say you?